One Direction After Marriage ( a 1D Fanfic )

9# Broken hearts </3

Lauren's POV : 

I spent two days at luana's place. I love how that girl made me forget everything and have the break I needed. "You Should be clear To Yourself .Do whatever you want ,but think about what gunna happen in Future" I guess I needed her advice so Bad.

I just thought of going back home in order not to be an annoying guest and I just missed my bed. I know I'd find it hard not to be beside him but I have to move on specially after what I decided to do. Yeah It made me feel more comfortable when I knew that he was at liam's. I didn't wanna talk To Niall Fucking Stupid Horan Now.

Once I entered my house all these memories that I tried to forget flooded back into my mind. I tried to clear my mind as luana adviced me so I made hot chocolate to myself and sat in the living room writing my discisions in my diary.. 

"I will raise the baby by myself I know it will be really hard but I cannot kill him and I don't wan't to live with someone who will just run away and leave me to face the consequences by myself.he is such a coward and I can't let him treat my baby in a bad way only because he came in front of his will . .I understand that he is young and whatever but he have to understand me !! The question that luana asked me kept popping in my mind 'what will you do if he apologized?' I really have no answer. . I will leave it to its time. .. " 

Writing these things made me very tired. I closed my diary ,stood up and took a tour in my messy house. . 

The bedroom was mess. . The pillows were on the ground and the wardrobe was open and my clothes were falling from it. . The drawers were open .. mess is a very simple word from what I saw.Oh!! I left the room and went to the guest room to find the same but we have more details. . The room smells nasty and bottles of beer and vodka were scattered all over the floor.. I remembered all our arguments about this drinking thing..I also remembered his promises !! 

*flashback* 

Niall entered the house DRUNK!! Badly drunk. .. oh! GREAT. . I stood up and crossed my arms !! I was furious !! He left me worried till the morning waiting for him and he also returned drunk !!  

"What?" He asked with a rude tone  

"You explain "I said trying to keep calm  

"Explain what ?! Can't I just have fun and see people ?I am not imprisoned here !! " 

"I didn't say that you cannot have fun and enjoy your time, but don't forget that I am worried about you !!you could just call me and tell me that you will return late. It won't take a minute!! You didn't only return in the morning, you're also drunk and you know well that I forbid you from drinking!! That's my first rule but it seemed you forgot !!" I yelled the last part and he grabbed my wrist tightly  

"Don't you ever raise your voice!! Talk in an appropriate way or just shut up!! Got it? " he said while gritting on his teeth and without breaking the eye contact and when I didn't reply he tightened his grip more and I felt that my blood was trapped !! 

"Niall my ha-" 

"GOT IT?!! " he asked once more shouting this time. .. I didn't wan't to argue with him now as he is drunk and he might do something that may hurt me more so I just nodded  

"Good.. now go to your room. .I don't want to talk now " I nodded again and ran to the bedroom and kept crying to sleep. .. next morning he apologized and made it up to me. Not only that he also promised me that this won't happen again  

*end of flashback* 

He promised. .but he broke his promise. .... 

I just left and headed to sitting room to find my favourite vase broken into million pieces on the floor. ..my heart was as broken as this vase. .the few days ago niall turned to a real monster !! I went to the cleaning room and got my materials and started cleaning. . I sat on the floor cleaning all the mess. .I didn't realise that I was crying till I saw that my tears formed a pond on the floor.. I was really tired not physically but mentally. . My life just changed to hell in few days !! I kept cleaning and tears kept streaming down my face as waterfalls .. suddenly I heard the voice that I didn't wan't to hear at this moment..very wrong timing !! Niall..  

I turned around to see his shocked face. . I think that's because of my beast look,but I really don't care.. 

"Lauren.." he wispered shocked as his eyes grew wide. . What the hell does he want now ?!!  

Niall's POV:

She turned to me tears were streaming down her face and her eyes were puffy and red. . She looked weak ,the strongest woman I have seen in my life is mess because of the stupid me !!  

"Lauren. .."I said surprized. . In a second I thought that she is someone else !! She remained silent but tears kept streaming down her face as she stood up. . I moved closer to her and raised my thumb to wipe her tears but she turned her face the other way. . 

"Don't touch me " she said with a weak, cracking voice .. 

I maved backwards to make her feel somehow confortable. 

"Lauren. .can we talk ??" I asked ,but I didn't get a reply. She just ignored me and continued cleaning the mess that I have done before.. 

"Lauren can we talk " I asked louder but she just ignored me. . I couldn't handle it anymore  

"I AM TALKING TO YOU !! STOP IGNORING ME!!" I shouted and she became more and more nervous and hurt herself with a piece of broken glass. .. it made a cut in her small hand. . She just cried harder and louder. Now I could also hear the pain in her voice. .I took her arm and helped her up. . 

"Are you badly hurt?" I asked concerned  

"Yes niall. . I am badly hurt. . You hurt me. . Not my hand its my heart. . My hand will heal but my heart won't"  

I didn't know how to reply. .I was to embaressed to look in her face so I just looked at the ground 

"I am sorry. . I was drunk.. please forgive me. ." I pleaded still looking at the ground  

"Hahaha. ." She fake laughed and I looked at her with a questioning face and she continued 

"You were drunk so you have the permission to do whatever you did?!! Niall from the first minute we got married I said that I don't want you to be drunk because I knew that you will just say that. . And now sorry niall" 

"What do you mean?" 

"We are over niall. . I am filing for our divorce" 

"No. .noway. .we won't divorce !! Lauren I love you and I love my baby. .I want you back please don't do this "she just shook her head  

"Okay I know I hurt you ..I will give you a break to think. .please try to forgive me. .think about the good moments we had together. .please luaren give me another chance" 

She was about to say something but I cut her off 

"Don't say anything just think now "I said as I took he hand and went downstairs to the living room and sat her on the couch and rushed to the bedroom and got the first aid kit and bandanged her hand carefully taking care not to hurt her she tried to flinch her hand but I hold it softly and looked in her eyes  

"Please. " I mouthed and she remained silent. Once I finishes I stood up,kissed her forehead and left. She won't leave me .she cannot do that, without lauren I will die !!