pain ☹☻ {r.m + l.f}

seven•

"You do need my help!" He yelled across to me as i was out the school doors. I couldn't take it. His voice. Everything about him.

"No I don't!" I yelled back, not wanting to look him straight in the eye. Life wasn't being fair to me at the moment. I felt like i had nothing anymore. It wasn't fair. But then again I had nothing before, so.

"Riley, listen to me! You need to tell me whatever's going on." He says as he faces me. I look away, not wanting to start crying all over gain.

Stop crying!

"Riley, look at me." He says as he grabs the sides of my heads with his warm hands, causing me to look directly at him. I can't help but remember why i fell in love with this boy. This one boy that made me feel like i his, and he was mine.

"Let me help you." He says quietly. I let one more tear out of my eye and before i know know it my mind is screaming at me.

Stop. Crying.
Stop crying!

"What's going on here?" I hear a voice say. Lucas lets go of me and I can't help but feel that his hands should have stayed like that. That voice isn't one i wanted to hear right now.

Maya Hart

"Nothing." I lie as i wipe my eyes once more so she can't see the last of my tears.

"Riley—" Lucas starts but i cut him off.

"I promise you I'm fine. Just a little tired."  I lie. Why has lying becoming so easy? Is it that i do it all the time becasue i hide my emotions? Or is it because I don't want to reveal the truth and face everyone? Either way, someone gets hurt. It's easier if I'm the one hurt.

"No you're not—" he says again with anger in his voice. I can't help but think if he actually cares about me. If he does, I'm very grateful. But, I don't think Maya would be very okay with that.

"She's says she's okay, Lucas. Come on let's go inside." She says as she pulls his arm. I smile reassuringly to him, to tell him not to worry about me. But he does something that surprises me.

He tugs his arm away from her grasp and turns back to me.

"I'm not leaving you." He says to me as he hugs me once again. His warmth is what soothes me.

The energy, when you
hold me
when you
touch me,
It's so p o w e r f u l.

I've missed this, I've missed us. Isn't it fair that i get to be happy first? No. Because my friends' happiness is supposed to come first. Always.

"Lucas, if you skip school you're going to get a detention." She says using her logic. That's a first. She usually acts, before she does. It's not like her to think before she says or does her actions. Times have changed, things have changed.

"So be it." He says not looking at her but he keeps his eyes on me. "You could come with." He says. No! It's not that I don't want her around, it's that I'm going to be a third wheel, and I'm going to be left out of whatever we're gonna do or where ever we're gonna go.

"No! I still wanna graduate." She says and he chuckles. "Okay, Cya." He says and he takes my hand and we run.

Run away, together.