And who do you think you are? Runnin' 'round leaving scars, Collecting your jar of hearts, and tearing love apart.
-Jar of Hearts, Christina Perri
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Maria POV
Pain.
That's all I felt.
My eyes felt the discomfort from overcrying, a headche was already making itself known and my palms were slightly bruised form hitting the wall over and over again.
Yet, that wasnt the worst pain. The worse pain was the one that was harboring in my chest, demanding to felt. It was the aching, empty type of pain that seemed to make you feel like you were losing something.
It was a foreign pain to me, something I hadnt felt before today. It was a pain I hadnt felt before Josh.
The pain in my chest increased at the mention of hima and I cried even more because of it.
When was it going to end? The pain seemed to promise forever but that ccouldn't be possible. Nothing lasts forever.
Just like Josh and I.
And just like that I got another pang of pain, and it was because of him.
Anger filled me, replacing the pain for a little bit.
"I hate you Josh Edward Knight! I hate you! I hate you for loving me and I hate you for making me love you! I hate you for this pain! I. Hate. You. Oh God, when is this pain going to end?"
Cassie POV
He kissed me.
Josh Knight had actually kissed me.
The thought was overwhelming and bemusing. It brought hidden and buried emotions to surface, and I knew that I was a goner. My past promise of forgetting him and moving on was thrown to the wind because I knew it wasn't going to happen, and that I still had feelings for him. They weren't ordinary feeling either. They were heart-yearning, knee-wobbling, butterfly-consuming feelings.
But those feelings didn't keep me from running away from him.
I ran out the door, forgetting my book again, but I wasn't willing to go back. I was just going to tell the teacher some lame excuse, that id have to think of later. Right now, the only thing that my mind had room for were the events that had just occurred. I still couldn't believe it, and I never would in a million years. Some part of me still believed me that this was all some wonderful and extremely realistic dream that my mind had conjured up with my excessive amount of imagination.
I ran away with no precise direction or purpose but to get away from him as fast as I could.
What had just happened? Why did it happen?
One moment I was talking him and the next he was kissing me.
Why had he kissed me? He didnt like me. I knew that for sure because he was in love with Maria.
I had heard him say it perfectly clear and when I saw his eyes I saw the pain he felt for losing her.
So no, the kiss couldnt possibly have meant anything.
His head was just not clear right now. He was in pain and I had been a distraction. I had been a way to get back at Maria.
I had meant nothing to him. I was nothing to him, and the stupid thing about this was that for a split second I was actually going to let him hurt me again. I was going to let him into my heart again.
With that thought, a tear escaped me, and I wiped it away as quickly as possible. I was not going to cry for someone who had used me.
Josh was never going to make me cry again.
That was a promise I was willing to make for myself.
I was willing to forget about him and move on. My ears were ready to forget the voice that echoed in my head, my eyes were willing to forget his pearly-white smile, but my lips weren't willing to forget his touch.
Yet, I knew only time could fix that because everyone reached a point where everything was numb. That point was coming soon.
Josh POV
My life sucked.
Then again it wouldn't suck so much if I wasn't such an idiot.
I was the king of all idiots.
In fact, I may have invented idiocity. Yeah, that's right. It wasn't the Kardashians it was me
Why had I kissed Cassie?
What's worse is I had done it after my break up and after I realized I was the one who had hurt her all these years. She probably thought I was a player.
That's probably the reason she left running.
God, I was just an idiot.
That was probably the reason why Maria left me. She noticed it too and decided I wasn't worth being with.
Maria...
and now Cassie.
They had both decided I was not worth being with.
Not thay I wanted to be with Cassie. Wait, did I? Did it even matter anymore?
I ruined whatever possibilty we had of being friends.
I was fucking idiot.
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