Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
'Cause I'm not fine at all
-Amnesia, 5SOS
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Chapter 10
Josh's POV
It had been fourteen days and three hours since Maria dumped me. Coincidentally, that was also the last time I actually saw her face to face. She was missing during lunch time and nowhere to be found inbetween periods.
The only proof I had that she hadn't completely disappeared and moved to Mexico was because of my failed attempt to look for her.
I had asked to go to the restroom during Physics only to find myself outside of her Speech class. Her teacher, Mrs. Faerow, had been attacking the board with her expo marker, writing that day's lesson. The class behind her was paying no attention to her attempts to educate them. They talked amongst each other, whispering gossip.
I craned my neck, trying to get a better view of the students. My eyes searched the rows of desks, until I came across the one I was looking for.
Maria.
Her back was to me, but I knew it was her. Her beautiful dark hair gave her away. It was put together in the naturally messy bun that girls tried to pull off, but most couldn't. Maria could though.
She was perfect.
I tried sending her telekinetic waves, willing her to turn around, so she could see me. She didn't though.
It might've been because I didn't actually possess telekinetic or because she was completely engrossed in her conversation.
That's when I realized who she was talking to. It was Drake, one of the team's line backers.
They were laughing, and I felt a pang inside of me at the sight. I pushed the pain aside, telling myself it was nothing. They were just talking. Maria couldn't possibly have moved on so soon.
Yet, all of that proved false, when she suddenly put her hand in his arm.
Instantly, a memory of her hand on my shoulder on our first date came to mind.
It was her move. She did that only when she was interested in being more than friends.
She really was through with me. I had meant nothing.
I didn't feel anger though. Only emptiness. Sadness. Hurt.
That's when I turned my back on the girl who broke my heart. She had been a sly thief, a wonderful actress, and the love of my life.
And I couldn't even hate her for doing this to me because my broken heart still beated for her.
I didn't bother going back to class. I just walked the halls that seemed as empty as I was inside.
Maria POV
Derek laughed at my joke, and I smiled politely.
He was cute, I thought.
He had dirty blond hair that was cut neatly. His eyes were the exact shade of green that could melt a girl in her spot with just one look.
Yet, here I was. Still not melted.
"You're funny," he said, flashing me a pearly white smile.
"You're not so bad either," I said, putting my hand in his arm, trying to seem casual. I felt his muscles tense up at my touch, and I knew at that moment I affected him.
He was truly attracted to me, and I almost felt bad, but this was something that had to happen.
"So hey, um," he started suddenly becoming nervous, and then continued, "I heard about you and Josh."
It was my turn to tense up now, but I quickly recomposed myself.
"What about it?" I asked, trying to sound casual like what he said didn't affect me at all.
"So is it true?"
"Yeah," I answered with a shrug. Derek stayed quiet for a second, debating something.
"So, um, I don't know it this is too soon, but I was, uh, wondering, if-only if you wanted to though-you'd like to go out sometime?" he asked, staring at her fidgeting fingers.
I had to smile at his nervousness, but it just left a knot in my stomach.
"I'd love to."
At that, he gave me his million dollar, pearly white smile that somehow refused to melt me. Instead, I willed myself to smile back at him, but it refused to reach my eyes.
He didn't notice.
No one did.
And I was both thankul and hateful for that fact.
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