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Wassup Guys!

So, I'm on a totally writing role at the moment the creative juices and flowing it's like a creativity waterfall that comes from creativity central which is in creative town - cause that is where I live at them moment! Oh yeah!

Today, I had a really odd day - you might have had one of these days - It was an awesome day I got nearly all my Christmas shopping down I was feeling really festive and everything was going great and then something happened it lasted like 10 minuets and I was like b*tch you just ruined my day - WHAT THE HELL!

[As you can tell by the language I've given up trying to make this all ages friendly, if you don't like swearing don't read cause I am on a role now and it can probably only go down]

So, this "thing" was an essay and If you've been a student as secondary school or university or high school or college or whatever you people call it - you will know that essays become the bane (no idea what that means but I assume it is bad) of you life.

Bane means as cause of distress or annoyance, so yeah, it was the right word.

Anyway, my essay was on philosophy. No word can describe how bad I am at philosophy - I am totally, completely and amazingly sh*t at philosophy. I'm just not a deep thinker and what I didn't realise when I signed up for the course that you have to be a deep thinker. I realise that sounds bad: I am a deep thinker but only on things and actually care about, so if someone wanted to talk to me about human rights, like women rights and young people rights - I am there,  I am fully really to have a total DMC for hours! But when someone expects me to think deeply about why a table is a table - I'm sorry but I just can't care less - a table is a table because it is, when the man who made the table made it he said to himself "I am going to call this a table" he then told his friends and they told they're friends and so on and so on until my mother and father told me "darling, this is a table". PUNCTUATION HAS GONE TOTALLY OUT OF THE WINDOW NOW!

And breath.

So, I was writing this essay about philosophy (not about tables this time) and it was just getting to me cause I always getting a sh*t grade and in my head I was just thinking "why do a both now - seriously - just why?" and it was really getting in my head that I don't want to do this, I just give up. I got a bit emotional - well peed off - and, I don't know if you get this, but I HATE crying I feel it shows me as too weak and I hate feeling like that, in my mind I'm strong and I can cope with whatever this world has got for me, I'm pretty relaxed when it comes to difficulties 'cause there's no point worrying about something that has just got to happen (I do worry about somethings but major life things like grades have never stresses me out to much). Life throws sh*t at you and you've just got to pick the sh*t straight back up and throw it back at life and be like "nuh uh b*tch, this is not gonna get me down cause I am amazing and you are - I don't even know what you are but move aside!"

Back to the point - I haven't done my essay

But! And this is a big but! 'cause I like big butts and I can't not lie - I just thought I'd add that it. Anyway, life isn't easy and I know everyone tells you this your friends, your parents, your teachers, your boss if you have a boss but you've just got to work it. But if you're trying to live up to other people expectations then you're not living your life you're living their and clearly they need to work out what they're and doing and stay the hell out of your life.

First, life is a box of chocolates you never know what you're going to get - YES I DAMN WELL DO! IT WILL BE CHOCOLATE! Some of the chocolate will be sh*t and some of it will be good but to be honest I not ever that big a fan of chocolate! Life is not chocolate, we can't compare life to anything - what life is, is it is great, it's weird, it's wonderful and it looks damn short when you standing at the finish line in your old age, but life is what life is - and it will be whatever you want it to be. When I'm old and wrinkly and can't even remember my own name I want to sit down with my children and grandchildren and be able to tell them all these amazing stories about my life and how I took it with both hand and shock it upside down till it gave me it's lunch money.

My second most hated quote is, when life gives you lemons make lemonade. No. I'm gonna make a tricycle out of those lemons and then I'm gonna take it apart and make a chocolate cake and then maybe a gorilla. Because for me I don't want to be conventional because where did conventional ever get us? Being "conventional" has lead us in to war, being "conventional" has made everyone live like robots, being "conventional" makes us all the same and that is BORING!

My favourite quote is - and it comes from yours truly - don't be a sheep be a fish. Following the crowd is boring it makes everyone the same person, you know they say never meet your idols well you should also never meet yourself and by following the crowd you can see yourself in people everyday! But fish - ahhh... the mighty fish, natures... fish, the fish is different and when I say fish I mean salmon. The live version not the Tesco version. Be a salmon and swim up stream, fight the waves and the tides and when that grizzly bear tries to eat you, slap it down!  Cause you are a salmon! You are the ULTIMATE salmon! You are the salmon that those sheep want to be.

Now I've had my rant and probably bored the socks off of you by the end of the first paragraph - if you even got that far? Just, please, be amazing and be you because it's really not as hard as it seems.

I put the link to a song at the top it's by Jack and Jack you might know them you might not but it is the song I live my life by especially when I'm having a tough time or if someone else is having a tough time because it makes me think "YES! I can do this!"

So, be awesome, amazing, over and OUT!

x VIVA

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