I was walking up my drive way listening to the misfits. When I saw the front door swing open "GET IN THIS HOUSE RIGHT NOW!!" My mom yelled. Yay
"Hey there mom...have you been working ou-". "CUT THE BULL SHIT LEA I KNOW DAMN WELL YOU SKIPPED SCHOOL TODAY AND SO HELP ME GOD I DONT KILL YOU!!!"
"Mom technically I ditched half way thru the day I'm sorry it won't happen again" I said walking upstairs. She grabbed my arm and pulled me back down."NO YOU GET YOUR LITTLE ASS DOWN HERE! COME ON LEA HOW MANY TIMES HAVE WE BEEN OVER THIS?!?!?! THE 6th TIME THIS MONTH YOU HAVE DONE THIS!!" She was obviously really upset about it.
"I know it's just that I hate school and the people! I feel like such an outsider and its hard to do everything because
I don't understand it! The only thing I'm good at is reading and ignoring everyone people make fun of me and I hate it! If you would pay attention more you would see how fast my self esteem is diminishing but you wouldn't care you barely talk to me ! I hate it here I hate you! I wish I would have stayed with dad he is so much better than you will ever be!"
She looked at me for a long time with the blankest expression on her face and then I saw it......she was crying........this was the first time I had ever made my mom cry. She has cried happy tears for me but never sad ones.
I studied her expression a little more closely and she wasn't really looking at me but she was. It was of just a lost look on her face her mouth was agape a little. "Go to your room" she said in barely a whisper. I slowly and quietly made my way upstairs. My head hurt. I layed down and put my headphones in. And cried. I cried so many tears for my mom, me, and my dad. The person I used to love so much was now nothing more than a faint stranger.
***************2 hours later*********
I woke up. I felt like a first class bitch for making my mom cry I had to find her and say sorry. I got up from my bed and went to find her " mom" I said shakily.no answer. "MOM" I said louder. Still no answer I began to get scared my hands were shaking. I went to the kitchen and flicked the light on. I looked in the counter and found a note.
"Lea-what you said hurt me deeply and and I never thought my own daughter would ever tell me that. But I do know that the guilt is eating you alive- how do I know this? Because I'm your mother and I love you, so if your sorry I forgive you but say it to my face and you know where to find me I go where I always go when im sad or angry
-mom"
I wiped a stray tear from my cheek and got my jacket and shoes on. I know she took the car. I grabbed my headphones and phone and made my way to her special spot. I opened the door and felt the cold wind hit me like a punch in the face. I began walking and put my headphones in.
About 9 songs later I reached the pond that she loved so much and saw her dark frame sitting in the bench closer to the pond. I could here her soft sniffling. "Mom" I said sitting down next to her.
"Hi sweetie" she said looking at me "look mom I'm so sorry for what I said and you were right the guilt is eating alive because I made you cry for the first time and I feel like such a b-". "I know, but please don't curse" she said to me. "I'm sorry" I said. "Can we just put this behind us and move forward?" I asked.
"yes we can, so tell me anything new going on with you?" She asked. "Well" I said questioning if I should tell her about Tom or not. To late-"I met a boy" I said quickly
"I know I watched you walk up the drive way when you came home and I know that smile you had". I laughed I really had the best mom in the world. " does he know you like him?" She asked "wait I never said I liked him-".
