The next morning I woke up to the rude alarm on my phone. 5:30. I groaned and rolled over expecting the bed to be empty. I felt Toms familiar body next to me. Quickly I silenced the phone so I wouldn't wake him up. I think I loved him most when he was sleeping. He looked so handsome and peaceful. I kissed his cheek.
I got up to take a quick shower. Fuck. I thought as I got in. I don't have any clothes here. I turned the water off and went back out. I don't have my car either. Fuck. I don't want to wake him up though. I groaned and walked out to the living room. Cara and Mark were passed out on the couch holding each other.
I smiled and got my phone. I texted my mom telling her I didn't feel well. Even though it wasn't true.
Momma🎀: Yea right get to school
I groaned again and quickly replied.
Me: Mom I really don't feel well I've thrown up four times this morning I've been up since three
Momma🎀: Fine. If I find out you lied your in trouble am I clear?
Me: Yes mom. Thanks
I turned my phone off and went back to lay down with Tom. I crawled in carefully-trying not to disturb him. I laid on my side and his arm held me at my hips. "Where'd you go?" He mumbled tightening his grip. "I had to text my mom" I said. "Why?" He asked. "For school. I'm not going today -any other questions detective?" I asked. He laughed quietly. I felt his lips against my cheek and he kissed me. "I'm going back to sleep" he whispered. "Okay" I replied with a sleepy yawn. There was no point in me trying to go back to sleep. I'm already already up.
I decided to go on my phone for a little bit until Tom woke up or if I fell back asleep. "Hey Lea?" Tom said quietly his voice raspy and low. "Yes?" I replied. "I love you". "I love you more baby" I said kissing his cheek.
A hour later Tom got up. "Is Mark and Cara still here?" He asked getting out of the shower. "I think so yea" I replied. "So no school?" He said pulling a white T shirt over his head. "Nope. told my mom I was sick" I replied. "Are you?" He asked shaking his hair to 'dry' it. "No" I responded dodging the flying drops of water from his hair. "Little rebel" he smirked combing his hair in front of his eyes with his hands. "What can I say?" I replied getting off the bed.
He laid back down on the bed. "You know..." He said placing his hand on my lower back and pulling me on his lap. "You look so damn sexy in my shirt" he said nibbling on my ear lobe. I giggled. His hand slowly moved up my thigh. "Ha ha nice try" I said picking up his hand and placing it on the pillow. "Hmm" he simply replied biting on my collar bone.
"You are the horniest boy I've ever met" I said getting off his lap. "Baby" he whined. "Tom" I mocked in the same tone he used. "You frustrate me!" He groaned rolling over into a mountain of pillows. I laughed. "Babe I need you to take me home because I need clothes I can't wear this all day" I said gesturing to his shirt that I was wearing. "Why not? You look great" he shrugged. "Tom!" I said pulling him off the bed. "Please?" I begged. He shook his head.
"Please!" I said grabbing his arm and shaking it. "I'm gonna throw a fit don't make me go toddler on you" I warned.
"Go ahead" he smirked. I was about to but it was too early to be all loud. "Ugh" I replied falling on to the bed dramatically. He laughed. "I'm just kidding come on" he said grabbing his keys. "Thank you" I smiled as we walked out to the living room. "Wait" Tom said grabbing my elbow. "What?" I asked. "You're not wearing any pants" he said. "So?" I shrugged. His shirt was long enough so that it kind of made for a makeshift dress.
"It's kind of like a dress" I added.
"If Mark gives you one look I'll kill him" Tom replied. "You're so cute when you get jealous" I teased.
Of course Mark was up. Cara was still asleep. "Wow lookin good Lea" he smirked. "Shit" I said grabbing Toms arm. "Fucking asshole" Tom said. "Come on babe" I said pulling him out the door. "I'm gonna beat his ass" he said angrily walking to his car.
After we got to my house I went upstairs to shower and change. "Babe!" Tom yelled. "What?" I replied from the shower. "I love you!" He yelled back. "I love you more!" I replied. "I love you most!" He shouted. I laughed. "I love you most-est!" I replied. "I love you most-er" he said coming into the bathroom. "Fine you win" I say defeated. "Dude what is all this girl stuff?" He asked.
I opened the shower curtain A little to see what he was talking about. "Get out of there" I said as he went through my cabinet. "This is a lot of shit" he laughed. He was still going through my bathroom cabinet as I rinsed off.
Turning the water off and opening the curtain, Tom stood in front of me holding a tiny container that I instantly recognized. "What is this?" He asked. "Tom...put that away" I said reaching for it. He stepped back but didn't break eye contact.
Razors.
That's what they were. My old razors. I couldn't bring myself to throw all of them away. "Why do you still have them?" He asked. "I thought I threw them away" I shrugged stepping last him. He followed close behind me out of the bathroom. "Lea this isn't okay stop acting like it doesn't matter" he said as I dried off. "It doesn't I don't use them" I said pulling a clean shirt over my head. "But you still have them-are you keeping them?" He asked. I didn't answer. "God dammit" he said running a hand through his hair. A habit of his that only showed up if we had an argument.
"What the hell Lea? When's the last time you cut?" He asked. "Maybe six months ago" I replied pulling on some shorts. "Maybe six months ago?" He asked grabbing my wrist and turning them over. It was the truth. "Let me see your other one" he demanded. I turned my other wrist over to reveal that it was clean. Except for all the scars.
He pulled me into a hug.
When I pulled away he walked to the door. "What are you doing?" I asked following him down the steps. "I'm throwing them away" he said. "Tom stop" I said grabbing his arm. "No stop I need them!" I yelled trying to grab them from his hands. "What the fuck?" He asked turning to face me."Tom you can't throw them away" I cried. "Yes I can. And I will" he said yanking his arm away. "Please Tom don't-" I cried again.
"What the hell is wrong with you?! You don't need them!" He yelled. Tears fell from my eyes. "Tom please" I cried. "I can't throw them away" I sobbed. I threw my arms around his torso. Sobbing uncontrollably. "Lea...baby you don't need these your gonna get better I promise and I'm gonna help you. I love you. You don't need them" he said stroking my hair. "I can't get rid of them" I whispered. "Why? give me one good reason" he replied.
"Because-...because they..." I stuttered racking my mind for a good enough reason. There wasn't . "I don't have one" I said squeezing my eyes shut. "I'm throwing them away" he answered with a tone of voice saying that it was final. "You're gonna get better Lea, you will" he said opening the front door. I stood in the door way and watched him walk out to the trash can.
He tossed the small compartment in the trash, and I felt a small weight lifted from my shoulders. I didn't have to worry that anyone would find the razors, no more worrying that I would break my promise to Tom and cut myself again. I really, really wanted to believe him when he said I would get better. Maybe I will. As long as I have him, I'll be okay.
A/N HELLO how are you beautiful people!? I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter and comment and vote all that great shit. Thank you thank you so much for the reads and all the support I love you guys so much!🤘🏼❤️👽 P.S this whole chapter was 1492 words... "In 1492 Columbus sailed the ocean blue"
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