Everything you want

Home Tonight

Sunlight found it's way through the curtains and on my face. I moaned and buried it into a cushion, but stretched out my legs and blinked a few times as I looked around. I didn't freak out this time though, I knew where I was. Quietly, I got off the couch and wrapped the blanket around me, creeping from the living room towards the porch, peeking out a window. It looked like it snowed more over night, a few feet of a white blanket of snow covered Steven's yard. I noticed a trail of footprints in the middle of it and tilted my head. Was Steven up already? What time was it? I pulled my phone out to check the time. 1:23. Huh, I must have been more tired than I thought. I looked back out the window and saw Steven walking back towards the door with some mail. He spotted me in a the window and smiled. I smiled back.

"You should have woken me up" I said when Steven walked back inside

"I was, but you looked pretty comfortable and I didn't have the heart to"

I shook my head and grabbed my jacket "It's fine. I just really need to get back home" I said as I zipped up my jacket, took my gloves from my boots and started to put on a boot "The last 24 hours have been a lot of fun though." I said as I hopped around, getting the boot on "Thank you, Steve-ah!" I stumbled forward in my effort to put on my shoes, right into Stevens arms "Oh! I'm sorry!"

"It's okay Amy" Steven chuckled as he held me up.

Flustered, I sat down to get both my boots on safely. I got my gloves and hat on and looked at Steven, who was walking over, swinging his car keys on his finger.

"Thanks for the ride" I said as we walked outside an to Steven's car "You've been a gentlemen this whole time" I noted. Steven grinned again and started the car "Can you not smile like that?" I said in a friendly manner "it sends chills down my spine!"

"How would you rather me smile?" Steven laughed

"I don't know" I giggled, leaning back in my seat. I looked out my window and watched the snowy trees pass by and jumped up "I forgot to tell you where I live, didn't I?"

"I thought you weren't going to tell me and I'd just kidnap you or something" Steven joked.

I rolled my eyes and told him my address, and spent the rest of the car ride in a comfortable silence. As we started nearing my house, I was hoping no one would be out there waiting. Thank God they weren't. I turned to Steven "Here we are" I said sadly. Already, just looking at the house, I was feeling lethargic. I turned to Steven and forced a smile "Thank you" I said and started to open the door. Suddenly, in a burst of confidence, I turned and stared at Steven "You know what. Can I give you my number? I'd sorta hate to just end like this after some sort of connection and I-"

Steven cut me off by handing me his phone "Go ahead and put it in."

I laughed a bit and typed in my number, handing it right back to Steven "Bye" I whispered and turned again, opening the door and walking out. I waved to Steven and watched him drive off before turning to my house.

You know how in The Wizard of Oz or Oz the Great and Powerful, Kansas was dull and gray and heartbreaking, and Oz was full of color and they're happy? Gabriel and my life are Kansas, and Steven is Oz. I didn't know it at this point, walking to my door and seeing everything become gray. But I would within the next week or so. But more on that later.

I walked into the house and saw Gabriel, Lucas, Dawn, and Elizabeth sitting in the living room with mugs of tea. when they heard me walk in, all eyes were on me.

Alright, pause. You know Gabriel is my fiancee. Lucas is my older brother at twenty seven, Dawn is my younger sister who is only eighteen, and Elizabeth is my best friend I met at my first year of college.

"Hey everyone, I'm sorry I made you worry." I said and took off my hat.

"You should have invited Kristi in" Lucas said, glaring at me.

"No, she was only in for the day and she had a flight to catch" I lied "I'm not feeling well, I think I'm going to take a nap" I said and started taking off my jacket and mittens and boots before retreating into the room. I laid in my bed and buried my face in the pillow, tired.

The door burst open and Lucas and Dawn pulled me out of bed. I gasped as I sat on the floor, Dawn shaking my shoulders "What is wrong with you!" She yelled and grabbed my hand "Where is your ring?"

"Oh, I.. It's in my pocket" I said and slowly pulled it out "I... we were playing in the snow and I wanted to-"

"Stop the lying, Amy!" Lucas said and he hit the dresser "Where were you yesterday? And don't say you were with Kristi."

"I didn't do anything wrong!" I yelled, my eyes tearing up "Relax! I was with a.. a.. acquaintance!" Yeah, that was what we were "I was with hi-her, and I was tired so I fell asleep!"

"Tired" Dawn scoffed "You're always tired lately! Are you sick or something? Are you dying? Pregnant? Depressed?"

"No! I'm not! I just want to be left alone sometimes!" I snapped and pushed Dawn away "So go! Leave me alone!"

I stormed into the bathroom, locking myself in. Lucas and Dawn started knocking on it, and later I heard Elizabeth and Gabriel join them. I stripped down and went into the shower, turning it on and sitting in the fetal position, trying to drown them out, and started crying. After maybe an hour, they gave up and I turned the shower off but kept still.

Why did I want to go home?

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After that day, I was left alone. Except for Steven, who texted and called a lot. It was nice to know that someone was there that cared about me that I wanted to. It was nice to talk to him. I finally told him about my engagement and vented to him a lot, and he would talk to me about his own engagment to someone named Erin and the guys in his band.

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About five days until Christmas, Gabriel and I were getting ready for a Christmas party when Steven called me again.

"Hello?" I whispered as I escaped into the bathroom.

"Hey baby" Steven greeted with the usual charm in his voice "How are you?"

"I'm okay.." I said, leaning against the sink, thought I know I didn't sound convincing.

"What's wrong Amy?"

"Nothing, I'm just tired and I have to go to a Christmas party. I should be more excited, shouldn't i? I don't know, it's not like I'm going to see anybody new. And I'll be glued to Gabriel the whole night" I sighed "I hate whining to you"

"It's fine, honey" Steven assured "Hey, I'm having a Christmas Party of my own the night after tomorrow. If you don't have plans, come over. You don't have to bring Gabriel unless you want."

I smiled "Oh yeah, I'd love to come. What time?"

"Six thirty, but if you want to stop by earlier and help me set up you can"

"Alright, how about I come at four?" I asked, brightening up.

"Perfect"

"Amy! Come on!" I heard Gabriel yell.

I frowned "I gotta go Steven. See you soon" I said and hung up, leaving my taste of Oz to go back to Kansas.