Delta

White Curtain

The emergency room was crowded that night. The doctors and nurses looked busy. A girl came into the room. Her face seemed pale and her body was thin. Her brown hair couldn't covered her worriness. A doctor came to her, let her to lay on the examination bed, and checked her. The doctor gave an oxygen canule so she could breathe easier, then gave them an explanation. The doctor left and close the curtain beside her.
"It sucks".
The girl looked around where the voice came from.
"I'm right in your side of your bed. And no, i'm not the sound of God that answer your prayers".
The woman smiled. She opened the white curtain between those two so he could see the face of the person. He found a guy laying next to her on another examination bed. He has blonde hair, blue eyes. He seemed young. Twenty something.
"It sucks that we are here".
The girl didn't respond.
"Did i bother you?", asked the guy.
The girl shooked her head.
"Let me guess. Tumor?".
The girl shooked again.
"Accident? Wait..i dont think so. Bad infection?".
She shooked again.
"Well..it's kinda hard. Since i'm not a medical major. I give up. What is it?".
She made a long pause.
"Leukemia".
"Oh. That", said the guy. "Bad one or good one?".
"It's actually Acute myelogenous leukemia. And basically it's a problem from the bone marrow where my body is uncapable to produce the enough amount of.."
"Okay,i lose you since you said Acute..".
The girl laughed.
"I'm sorry. I'm just kidding. Sometimes the situation is too tense in here. You'll need a good laugh".
The girl nodded.
"I'm Aaron, anyway. Car crash. Fracture on my right leg. Bad one".
"Hi, Aaron".
"Hi,em..how should i call you? The leukemia girl? That seems a little bit off".
She smiled. "Candice. I'm Candice".
"Hello, Candice".
"So, your disease. I'll take that as a bad one, perhaps?".
"Yeah, you could say so. I have to wait for a bone marrow donor that fits for me. But it is more complicated than that. It's hard to explain".
"Try me".
"I'm an AB rhesus negative".
"Oh..".
"Yep. I had the special blood".
"Wish i could help you, but i'm O positive".
"That's totally fine. Let's talk about other things".
"Okay. Boyfriend?".
"Dumped me after one year and a half. Next topic".
"That sucks. Work?".
"Accountant".
"Ugh, that seeems boring".
She laughed. "It is".
"Passion?".
"Passion?".
"Yeah, passion. Things that you enjoy the most and..".
"I do understand what is passion. It's just..i haven't done what i loved since like a long time".
"What do you love?".
"Writing".
"Really?".
"Yeah. Well, i'm not a good writer but well, i do write".
"What do you write about?".
"Everything. But mostly, children. I really like child story. Call me childish but, there's something beautiful about children".
"You mean the creature that cried and yelling to get what they want? Ugh, i've been here since the afternoon and i couldn't bear the sound when children came and cried so loud".
"Well, that is whey they are children. They expressed what they felt honestly. If they hate something, they will cry. But if they're happy, they will laugh. Not like adults. We keep our feeling. We hide it so well that it is complicated to guess our feeling".
This time, aaron nodded his head.
"Even ourself sometimes couldn't describe our feeling".
"So, what about you? What do you do?", asked Candice.
"I worked on a business company. And yeah, i practically worked long hours".
"That sucks too".
"Yeah, totally". They both laughed.
"You know? There are times that i was thankful to be here. At least i didn't have to work. And it is a good place to really think about what we've done on life. A break. "
"I dont know. I've been here for like a long time. I spent my year for blood transfusion. I really want a normal life", said Candice.
"What are your passion?", asked candice.
"Singing".
"You're a good one?".
"I was on a band on my high school back then".
"Yeah? Well, sing for me. I mean, i dont know how many days i will survive, so singung for this dying girl is actually a good deed".
"Ugh, your sarcasm tickles me".
She smiled.
"If you ask then curch then i am no believer. Spend sundays asleep i'm just another dreamer. Still tryna find my home sweet home. And i guess i ain't too good for money neither. I got two left feet no i'm not jackson either. Just tryna find my way someway. I am free..oh I..oh I..oh I..".
He sang. For her.
"Thank you. That made my day".
"It's Free from Rudimental".
"I will add it to my playlist".
There is a long pause.
"You'll survive".
"What?".
"I see it in your eyes. You had this huge believes that you will be cured someday".
"I lost hope about a month ago, there was this guy who fits and want to give a donor to me, but suddenly he refuses. He said to the doctor that the procedure is too risky for him", she shrugged.
"That's just the way things are. When you were about to lose hope, then the help comes. It is really last minute. It is always the moment when you least expected it. As if God test you and gave it until you work hard".
"You believe in God".
"I believe in uncertainty".
"If you're healed, what do you want to do the most?", Aaron asked.
"Quit my job. At night i think a lot about that. Then suddenly it hits me. I could do anything. I mean anything. I have the same capability like others. I have the same opportunities. I will try for that. And no one is restricting me. The only one that limits you is yourself".
Aaron smiled to her.
"I'll write a book. Children book preferably", said candice.
"You're right. You have every right to do things that you want. You are free".
Then a doctor came and fully openedthe curtain between them.
And then Candice saw it.
Aaron had only one leg.
Aaron saw the expressions on Candice's face.
"Sometimes there are greater things in life that requested to be asked. And we all living it to search for the answers".
The doctor seemed want to bring Aaron to another place. "He should go to the operation room. He has another operation scheduled".
"Goodbye, Candice", said Aaron. And then he gone.
Candice looked at the ceiling. The white ceiling. This conversation healed her better than the oxygen canule. Then she cried. She sobbed so hard like children. And she felt really great about it.
I am free.. Oh I.. Oh I.. Oh I..