"Look Sheena, I'm sorry. I really am. It wasn't right what I did. It was wrong. I shouldn't have done that. I shouldn't have yelled at you. I didn't have the right to. I can't blame you for what you did. You did drugs? Yeah, you did, I don't blame you. If I did, I'd be an hypocrite. I just don't want you to do it again. It's bad for you. It can kill you. And if you die, I'd die too. I don't-" Slash rambles on almost crying in front of me. Seeing him like this hurts, it's breaking my heart in two so I decide to cut him off.
"Slash..." I call his name in the attempt to shut him up but unsuccessful.
"You can't die. I won't let you destroy yourself with cocaine. And if you get worse and start doing heroine? No, I won't let you. I can't lose you. I just can't. You mean everything to me. I just-" His voice cracks and tears starts rolling down through his cheeks. My first impulse is to hug him tight. I wrap my arms around his torso and bury my head on his chest.
"I just can't lose you, Sheena. Please. Don't ever leave me." Slash cries wrapping his arms around me tight and leaning his forehead on the crook of my neck.
"Saul, you will never lose me, because I can't lose you too. I forgive you. Of course I do. How could I do not forgive you? This night has been a nightmare. Thinking about us mad at each other ssuffocates me. Our fight was breathtaking." I say almost in tears.
"So, aren't you mad at me anymore?" He asks.
"No." I shake my head onto his chest. "Can we go inside and cuddle all night? I'm so tired.."
"Sure."
~~~
Slash and I are lied down on my bed under the warm sheets. We are spooning and he has an arm wrapped around my waist.
"How was work today?" He asks into my hair.
"Tiresome. I'd never had a busy Monday has tonight." I say. Full house on Monday, it's the weirdest thing I've ever seen. No live music, no nothing, but a full house.
"But Sheena, I was there and there was only 5 people at the bar, without counting with me, Duff and Collin..." Wait, what? Eight people? No that's impossible. I swear, today that bar was as full as a trash can.
"You were there? With Collin and Duff? I thought Collin had left after our talk by the counter." I say confused and frowning.
"I can say that you didn't see us. You were too busy with those 5 costumers. Where was Tracy?"
"She was unpacking some stuff Cass had told her to do. She spent all night doing that shit."
"I saw what Cass did to you." What does that mean?
"What do you mean?" I furrow.
"She put all the work on your back. The only time she did something was when me or the guys asked for something. That's why you never saw us." He explains. That bitch. I don't believe she did this to me. That stupid lazy butt put everything on my back. That's why I'm so tired.
"That bitch. Oh well, whatever, I don't really give a fuck." I mumble.
"Sheena..."
"Hmm."
"I know something is wrong with you... And you know you can tell everything, right." I can feel concern in his words. He really cares, doesn't he? That's why I love him so much. I can't explain how much I love this guy and it just passed a month since we met. I think I fell in love as soon as we laid eyes on each other. Yeah, that sounds so cliche and not possible, but you know, love is a weird thing and you never know when it comes to you and land on your heart. Love is an unexplainable thing. You don't know it 'till you feel it. I once thought love sucked, but then I met Slash and everything I thought about love changed.
"Saturday Jade and I had a fight..." I sigh. "She said you don't love me, and rock stars can't love, and that you'd exchange me for some hot blond groupie and that you're gonna cheat on me with that groupie because she will be hotter than-" I start rambling on almost in tears thinking about those mean things that Jade had told me.
"Shenna, shhh." He cuts me off. "I will never, but never, leave you, or exchange you or cheat on you, ok?" His voice is soft, kind and warm. I couldn't feel more save in his arms.
"Do you love me?" My voice cracks as I ask the question.
"Of course I do love you. My love for you is bigger than Texas plus the oceans and the universe. Now, let's go to sleep, ok?"
"I love you too." I whisper.
~~~
"We look so badass in this one" Steven points to a picture where all of us are really good looking. Today is Wednesday so we came to the photography studio to choose the photo for the poster.
Yesterday Collin left to New York and he's not able to come back before Christmas, which sucks.
Before he left, we went to the police station and he pressed charges as he promised to do.
"We definitely should choose that one." Duff points to the same photo that Steven pointed to.
"Well, I like it..." I say. The photo is amazing, I think we should put it on a big frame in our living room.
"Alright, I guess it's chosen!" Axl exclaims claping his hands and everyone cheers.
"Hmm guys... I know you're not worried about the concert because you've done a million times and you don't give a shit, but I do because I've never done something like this before, so what about we go home and rehearse?" I ramble with everybody looking at me blankly.
"How about tomorrow?" Izzy suggests.
"C'mon guys, please...." I plead with cute puppy eyes and that stuff that Steven and Slash do a lot.
"Ok, let's go rehearse"
~2 weeks later~
Tomorrow it's the day of the gig and I'm nervous as fuck. We've been rehearsing everyday since that Wednesday but I'm still so frightened about it...
I mean, I'm gonna be in front of a crown with thousands people hungry for Guns N Roses. I can't fail.
"Sheena you got this." Slash says squeezing my knee. We are in the basement sat down on the couch and I'm with my Gibson on my lap. "You've been rehearsing like hell, you're talent as fuck and people will love you."
"Do you think?" I ask unsure... "I don't want to be a joke..."
"You won't be a joke! You're gonna be so good that Geffen will ask you to sign with them. And after that, they will look for a band for you and you'll be famous as fuck." He says and I start laughing.
"Yeah, I guess..."
"That's not the answer I wanna hear..." He takes the guitar off my lap landing it on the other side of the couch and gets closer to me.
"No?" I tease shaking my head slowly making our noses touching.
"No." He teases back grinning.
"I won't be a joke because I'm talent as fuck and Geffen will want to sign with me and will find me a band and then I'll be famous as fuck." I say between the multiple kisses I gave him on his irresistible lips.
"That's my girl." He grins before gives me a long and passionate kiss.
A/N: I'm sorry, I've not been able to update. But there you go.
Can we just talk about how much I cried writing the part when Slash says sorry to Sheena. Was I the only one who cried?
THEIR RELATIONSHIP IS MY GOALS. AF. I cry :(
Guuyss, I'm already prying on my one-shot Christmas. Are you excited?
In Portugal there's only two days missing for Christmas, and I'm really excited. Christmas is one of my favourite holiday. Cliche oops.
Merry Christmas everyone!
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FanficSheena is going back home, but she has a surprise on the next door. There are five new crazy guys living on the next door. They are called Guns N' Roses. And one of them starts being special for her and her for him. Sheena's life is totally upside d...
