This Wasted Time On You Has Left Me Shaking And Waiting

If You Should Fall You Know I'll Be There

Yesterday when Jack came over something happened.

School was over in about 2 months and the weather was getting warmer. My leg had finally healed and I didn't have to lug around an extra five pounds. It felt nice. After school Jack came over to my house as always.

The younger boy sat on my front porch waiting for the soda I'm supposed to be getting for us. While he waited outside I grabbed two of my water guns from my closet upstairs. I filled both of them up in the bathroom and sink and ran down the stairs. Stealthily I creeped up to the door and opened it just enough to see Jack sitting out there. It's a wonder he didn't get suspicious as to why I was gone for so long.

I took a deep breath and put my hand to my mouth making those Indian like noises (You know what I'm talking about) while opening the door and squirting Jack with the water gun. "Alex, what the fuck?!" He got up and tried to cover himself. Throwing the water gun to him, he caught it and began to squirt me back. The water was colder than I expected and I cringed when it first hit my skin.

We ran around my front yard for an hour filling up our water guns and spraying each other. By the end of our water war we were both soaked. "I wish I brought a change of clothes because I'm soaked" Jack was totally sopping wet and so was I. "Let's go dry off inside" the two of us headed inside and wrapped towels around ourselves. We sat in my bedroom practically shivering with the air conditioning running.

"I'm gonna change into dry clothes. I hope you don't mind" Standing up from my bed I walked towards my dresser. "Yeah I don't mind" I pulled my wet shirt over my head and threw it to the floor. Jack whistled behind me. "Don't look at me!" He just laughed. "I can't help it you're so sexy" "JACK STOP!" My face grew hotter because now I could feel his eyes on me. Slowly, I slid my jeans off now not caring because fuck I had boxers on. I pulled on the new dry pair of jeans over my cold legs and then walked over to my closet. Just as I was about to put my shirt on Jack grabbed me. "Alex why? I know these are fresh look at them!" He traced the scars covering my hip. "Jack, I just-" He cut me off. "Why do you do this? It doesn't help you! Doesn't it hurt" I nodded and looked away. "I just want you to stop. For me" Pulling away from his grip I sat at the opposite end of the bed. "I don't think you exactly understand. There aren't words to describe what I feel. I'm sorry I know you want me to stop but it's not that easy"

We sat in brief silence. "Can you at least tell me why you do it?" I thought for a while. How do I tell him this? "It started when my dad left. I started to feel sad and just emotionless. Then it got worse. Your time to shine as most popular came around and I was being picked on. Actually by your friend group. It made me feel worthless and stupid. I always felt in the way. My mom would tell me to just ignore what they say, but that's kind of hard when you're constantly being harassed and picked on. My sadness grew into depression. I only felt bad all the time. Then I decided to take action, but not in a positive way. I broke a hand held pencil sharpener and took out the blade, making small cuts into my leg. Soon enough it grew into a habit. I've gotten better I swear, just not enough to stop."

His eyes grew sad. Wow why couldn't I have just kept my clothes on? Jack got up and moved himself next to me. He wrapped his arms around me tightly and put his head into my shoulder. His breathes were staggered and un even. "Alex please stop. I can never imagine you so sad" "Jack it's okay I'm better now" Lifting his head from my shoulder. "But not better enough!"

I put my hands around his face and kissed him softly. "I'm fine" The younger boy nodded and sat up. "I just want you to be happy" Me too. "Just know I'm here for you okay?" I barely got a word out before Jack had me pinned to the bed. "TICKLE WAR!!!" OH DEAR GOD.

 

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