This Wasted Time On You Has Left Me Shaking And Waiting

Things I Can't Change

Although my leg was in a cast it still ached. I couldn't do anything but sit and lay around. As if I don't already do that, so I guess it's not that bad. But I can't get up to get my own drink or food. I had to be treated like a child almost. I was thankful that Jack was there while my mom was away. I had no idea she was leaving for vacation. Guess I'm just too much to handle.

I was still suspicious though. Jack was supposed to be the cool kid with the cheerleader girlfriend and the perfect smile. Which he was. But why was he hanging out with me? Or even acknowledging me? And the other thing was that he didn't really mind it. He seemed to enjoy taking care of me. Most of the time we just played video games, but hey, I'm not complaining.

"Remember when you were the popular kid, Alex?" Jack put down his x-box controller and turned towards me. "Heh yeah but that was like 9th grade and half of last year. Then I guess you took my place."

I remember becoming the popular kid. Everyone wanted to be friends with me, including Jack. I say that because by the time we reached high school I changed a lot. Keeping Jack as my best friend wasn't my main priority anymore. Friends and girls were.  I managed to keep my grades up, but I also managed to gain maximum popularity AND a girlfriend. One of the prettiest girls in the grade too. Lisa Ruocco.

She was perfect. Lisa was pretty, funny, and understood me I guess. We were together for about a year and a half. Same time period of my popularity, so you can see how that turned out. Once I wasn't popular anymore she didn't want to be with me. Her excuse? "I don't think this is going to work out" As if I haven't heard that one before. Some of you may be wondering why my popularity stopped all of a sudden. People found out I was bisexual. Which was still a lie. I'm gay but for my own sake everyone but Rian and Jack think I'm bi. Remember earlier when that kid Matthew called me "Gayskarth" ? Matt and I used to be really good friends. And now look at him. A bigger jerk than he was.

When I think about it I'm actually happy that I left that group of people. Just imagine how horrible of a person I would be. Even now I'm pretending to be someone I'm not, and everyone at school is falling for it. First I was that lame bisexual kid Alex "Gayskarth", now I'm really cool, hot, can I have your number kid Alex Gaskarth.

Even thinking about it makes me feel bad. I totally ignored Jack and probably made fun of him. I guess you could call this his payback for what I did and now we're kind of battling for that top position of most popular kid in school. This was so stupid. Look's like my plan of becoming the "rebel" I wanted to be failed.

"Yeah but now you're the popular one here" Jack sighed and sat back in the beanbag chair sitting next to my bed. "I hate it though" By this point I could tell that he was being completely honest. He really did hate being popular, and I knew how he felt so I guess this was kinda easy to talk about. Jack explained to me about how much it actually sucked. People just wanted to be friends because he had money or access to girls that people wanted to hook up with.

"Sometimes I wish could go back to being that dorky kid I was a couple years ago" He just smiled thinking back on those times. "Well why don't you?'' 'There are just some things I can't change" I felt as though if I asked why the conversation would end in an argument, so I kept my mouth shut. We sat there in silence for a while. A comfortable silence though. Not one of those awkward silences that happens after someone tells a joke.

I felt myself getting tired just sitting there. An afternoon nap sounded nice though. The mattress sunk a little next to me and I knew Jack had climbed into bed with me. At that point I didn't even care. I put my head into the crook of his neck while he played with my fingers.

"Jack, what is this?" I stared intently at him playing with my fingers. He just shrugged. "I'm not exactly sure" ,he looked down at me, "Do you like it?" In my head I was laughing because me being the immature person I am thought that sounded sexual. "Well I-uh I.. I guess so. This is nice" We looked at each other and I felt like we were thinking the same thing. Damn do I wanna kiss this boy. I bit my lip and watched as the space between us grew smaller and smaller. Just as our lips were about to touch. "SO HERE'S YOUR HOLIDAY! I HOPE YOU ENJOY IT THIS TIME YOU GAVE IT ALL AWAY!" Jack's phone went off. He sighed and sat back pulling out his phone. It was his mom. One second. He mouthed and got off the bed.

"Yeah, okay mom, yes, I'm with Alex, yes the kid who is tutoring me, yes him, okay, mhmm, okay, bye" He turned back to me and laid back down on the bed with me. "Sorry my mom just wanted to know where I was" "It's okay" We stared at each other but the feeling wasn't the same. For another hour the two of us laid there just holding hands and talking. But the whole I wondered, What are we?

((A/N HEY GUYS! Yet another chapter updated and yeah I like this chapter I guess idk. Sorry if it is short, but I felt like it should end where it ended. Pretty sure I spelled Lisa's last name wrong but who cares? PLEASE COMMENT!))