Infinite Love

Chapter 12

*Caitlin’s POV*

I woke up in my bed. Hmmm I guess Liam must have carried me in because the last thing I remember is falling asleep in his car. I was still in the clothes from last night so that seemed like the most logical explanation. The memories of last night slowly came flooding back and I shot up. I have to talk to Liam about Emma. I was about to run out the door but I thought I should get dressed first. I changed into cheetah print pyjama pants and a black three quarter sleeve shirt. I looked at my bruises they had slowly started fading, still visible but still fading. I walked out to the kitchen and found no one else was there. I looked at the clock and saw it was 1:00. Surely someone must be up by now. I looked around and spotted a carrot shaped note on the fridge. Haha oh Louis. In my little One Direction education session by Emma, she mentioned that Louis obsesses over carrots. I went over and read the note.

‘Caitlin, geez you are a sleepy-head aren’t you? The boys and I have headed to a meeting with management and Olivia tagged along to spend some time with Josh. Will be back by six, Love Louis’

I stuck the note back on the fridge. I had some lunch and watched ‘The back-up Plan’ and ‘The Devil Wears Prada’. I looked at the clock. 5:30. The boys will be back soon and I can finally talk to Liam. I realised I haven’t had a look around the flat yet. All through both movies, I was thinking about Harry and the kiss. I didn’t want to stop it but I had to. I need to talk to him but what am I going to say. Do I want to be with him?, actually I do but am I ready to be with him? I got up and started looking around. I found the bathroom, kitchen, Olivia’s room, Louis’ room and a games room. I walked up to the last door and walked inside. It was a small and basic music studio. There was a microphone, piano, guitar and drums. I walked over to the stall near the microphone and sat down. I started humming. I opened my mouth and escaped to my happy place. The one that saved me many times.

“I thought, I saw a man brought to life

 He was warm, he came around and he was dignified

 He showed me what it was to cry

Well, you couldn't be that man I adored

 You don't seem to know

 Seem to care what your heart is for

 But I don't know him anymore

There's nothing where he used to lie

 The conversation has run dry

 That's what's going on

 Nothing's fine, I'm torn

I'm all out of faith

 This is how I feel

 I'm cold and I am shamed

 Lying naked on the floor

Illusion never changed

 Into something real

 I'm wide awake and I can see

 The perfect sky is torn

 You're a little late, I'm already torn”

I had been thinking of Harry the whole time because this is how I felt. I opened my mouth to continue when I heard a pair of hands clapping. I turned around to see Harry leaning against the door frame.

“I guess singing must run in the family” He just said.

“I guess..” I replied. It was silent for a minute until I spoke.

“Harry about the kiss” I started and he looked up at me. I continued.

“Harry, I’m sorry I ended it. I wanted to continue believe me but it brought bad memories back” I finished waiting for a reply.