Dark (A Louis Tomlinson story.)

Chapter 35- Do I?

AMANDA'S POV

I turned around to see Louis' head snap in our direction, his eyes locking with mine for a moment. I held Josh's hand as I began running down the sidewalk away from Louis. I glanced behind us to see Louis chasing me. Shit.

Josh ran next to me down the sidewalk. He was really fast, much faster than me. He must've noticed how much faster he was too because he picked me up bridal style before he continued running. I wrapped my arms around his neck and looked behind us to see Louis still running after us. To my surprise, Josh was still much faster than Louis even though he was carrying me. I suddenly felt something run straight into me, knocking Josh to the ground, me still in his arms. I looked up to see Niall standing there with wide eyes.

"Oh my god Amanda, I'm so sorry, are you okay?" He asked helping both Josh and I up.  

"I'm fine." I mumbled quickly.

I glanced behind me at Louis who was still running towards us. I spun around on my heels, I knew if I didn't lead him away from Josh and Niall he would probably end up tearing their heads off for even touching me.

"No! Amanda, stop!" Josh yelled but I was already running down the sidewalk towards Louis.

Louis had a smile tugging at his lips now as I ran towards him. I was quickly approaching him and with every step his smile grew wider

"Amanda, wait!" Niall yelled behind me, he was running after me! That dumbass!

"Amanda please stop!" It was a different voice, Harry.

I was right in front of Louis, his arms outstretched but I took a quick left down an alley. I shuddered as I remember Louis had caught me in an alley which definitely wasn't fun.

"Amanda! Get the fuck back here! I swear to god if you don't get over here right now I'll be fucking pissed and you won't enjoy that!" Louis yelled as he ran behind me.

I glanced behind me, the other three weren't there, it was just Louis and I. I took a right down a different alley before taking another right. I was taking as many turns as possible hoping to lose him somewhere. I took a quick left which I instantly regretted, I was at a dead end. Louis finally caught up to me. He grabbed my shoulders and spun me around to face him.

"Why did you run away from me? You scared me." He whispered, tears running down his cheeks before he wrapped me in a hug.

"Louis, I need to tell you something." I mumbled.

He pulled away from the hug but held me at an arms distance away. Tears were rolling down his cheeks as he looked at me. I thought about telling him something that wasn't important but I needed to tell him what I thought. A tear rolled down my cheek as I looked down at my shoes. He lifted my chin with his index finger so I was now looking him in the eye. My vision was blurry from tears and his eyes were watery from the tears that gathered in his eyes.

"You can tell me anything love." He said, pressing a quick kiss to my forehead before he looked at me again. I took a deep breath trying to calm myself down.

"Louis, I-I-I don't think this is working." I mumbled.

"What do you mean?" He asked quietly, almost whispering. Even more tears were now rolling down his cheeks.

"You hurt me Lou, I-I love you but I-I can't stand being hurt by the one I love." I whispered, closing my eyes tightly as tears rolled down my cheeks landing on the ground of the alley.

"So, wha-what are y-you saying?" He asked, his voice raspy from crying.

There was a long pause. I wiped the tears off of my cheeks but they were quickly replaced with new ones.

"I-I don't think I can do this anymore." I mumbled.

"So you're breaking up with me?" He asked tears rolling down his cheeks uncontrollably.

"I-I guess so." I whispered.

"Bu-but Amanda, I love you. Please done leave me. I can't stand being without you. I need you. I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm sorry for everything I've done to you. I'm sorry I couldn't protect you. I'm sorry for hurting your friends. I'm sorry for going to jail. I'm sorry for making you cry. I'm sorry for making you feel bad about yourself. I'm sorry for everything. Please just don't leave me Amanda. I need you. Please. Please don't go." He mumbled tears rolling down his cheeks rapidly. He began gasping for breath he was crying so hard. "Amanda, I'm really sorry. I just don't want you to go. I need you. I love you Amanda. I love you more than I've loved anyone. I love you more than I've loved anything. You mean the world to me and without you, I'm nothing. I understand that I may not be the perfect boyfriend but I try, I try to make you happy. I'm just a fucking fuckup. I don't think I can stand watching you leave. Amanda, please don't go. I love you."

"I love you too Louis, I just can't do this anymore. I'm done." With that I burst into tears.

Louis wrapped his arms around me tightly as I cried into his chest. He rubbed my back comfortingly as he rocked back and forth. I heard him sniffle a few times, he was still crying. He started singing which made me start crying even more.

"Baby, what are we becoming it feels just like we're always running rolling through the motions every day

I could lean in to hold you or act like I don't even know you seems like you could care less either way

What happened to that girl I used to know I just want us back to the way we were before

Do I turn you on at all when I kiss you baby does the sight of me wanting you drive you crazy do I have your love am I still enough tell me, don't I or tell me, do I, baby

Give you everything that you ever wanted would you rather just turn away and leave me lonely do I just need to give up and get on with my life baby, do I

Remember when we didn't have nothing but a perfect simple kind of loving baby, those sure were the days

There was a time our love ran wild and free but now I'm second guessing everything I see

Do I turn you on at all when I kiss you baby does the sight of me wanting you drive you crazy do I have your love am I still enough tell me, don't I or tell me, do I, baby

Give you everything that you ever wanted would you rather just turn away and leave me lonely do I just need to give up and get on with my life

Baby, do I still give you what you need still take your breath away light up the spark way down deep baby, do I

Whoa do I turn you on at all when I kiss you baby does the sight of me wanting you drive you crazy

do I have your love am I still enough Tell me, don't I or tell me, do I, baby

Give you everything that you ever wanted would you rather just turn away and leave me lonely do I just need to give up and get on with my life Tell me baby, do I get one more try do I baby, do I?" He sang.

He pulled away from the hug and looked down at me. Tears were still rolling down his cheeks as he looked at me.

"Amanda, do I get one more chance or do you want to break up for sure?" He asked biting his lip as he waited for an answer.