SOMETIMES

Reasonable, But Not

It is quite reasonable, and at the same time unreasonable to start cutting while you have been in pain for so long as few years, but when sometimes things clarify before your eyes, you stop doing the cutting, which is to the same extent reasonable and unreasonable at the same time.
As for my part, it only lasted for about a month and half. I stopped because:
1) I got help.
2) I got out of what was causing my misery.
3) I understood.
I understood a fact. The fact that our body is a gift we are given and it's what carries us souls. Each of us at every situation should give backwhat they have borrowed safe and sound; how will you feel if you broke your friends best toy who gave it to you for a day only?
My body didn't have anything to do with what I was doing. It was my.mind that I was angry with. It was me, my thinking, that couldn't do tthings better, why shall I break the robot.when the wrong is in the program? Shan't I edit the program, i.e. my own thinking? And so, that simply, I decided that I'd stop.
But still, I stare at the scars. I stare long and deep at them. And I actually gear that they'd fade. I don't want them to. I simply want them to remain there until I'll show my "causers" what they made me go through. I don't know how many there are who want to do the same, but I want to do it. And that's even when I know it'd be useless. Because just like always they'll rub it at my face anf say how weak I am for not being able to carry my own responsibility. But I really can't care less. I have been a puppet to them and I was being played with, and crashed under the weight of there words. Then I was blamed for why I was not able to carry them. Now that even the threads have been cut, I can't change the fact about what I was. And just like always, I have every intention to explain to them...even if it'd take hours.

-Updated December 30 - 2015 / 01:43 a.m.

The decision was made at December 10/ night

It lasted till now --January 1 - 2016 / 22:53 p.m.