SOMETIMES

Humanly, But Not

One may sometimes reach a point where they start to be disgusted; not of some food, not of some material, not of an ugly scene, but of humans and "humanity." They realize that there are a lot of things that can be found in humans to be disgusted about. The greed humans have for material things, the lust for one another or dirty stuff, the anger they show, the pride they have and desire to control and not be controlled, the envy for what they don't have but others do, even if they didn't wish to, the gluttony that kills thousands of us whiteout us being aware or even bother to care, the wrath we don't control, and the sloth that's seen everywhere -take technology as an example, thay are all what we, huamns, do. The Seven Deadly Sins of Dane's Devine Comedy, yes. But I now know he was totally right. The thing here isn't that i am disgusted because I see that eveyone at least has one of these at a certain rate. But i am disgusted of myself as a human because, let's face it, I have always hated anyone with greed for materialitic things and people with lust, but now I know; what am I different at? I have an unstoppable lust for some certain type of informtion, and the more I know, the more my greed and desire becomes to learn. I feel like i'll never be able to stop. How that is different from gluttony? What makes my savagery different from others'? Aren't we all simply humans that are to be called inhumane beings?
Regardless of what your lust is for, isn't it still lust?
No matter what you are proud of, isn't it still pride?
Regardless of what you you envy about, isn't it still envy?
Isn't it still sloth? Still gluttony? Still anger? Isn't it still greed? Isn't it still wrath?
Take it from me, being humiliated publicly is much better than self-disgust. Because simply there's no escape.......at least yet.