Becoming Janie

The Ultimate Fail

Cobie and I looked up to see Troy standing there.

"What?" I asked.

"Courtney, she's jealous of your looks."

I shook my head, you're having me on?"

"No, I'm serious. She's admitted it to me in the past."

"Ah, I'll leave you two to it" Cobie said getting up and staring Troy deep in the eyes on his way past him.

"No funny business" Cobie said to Troy.

I couldn't even be embarrassed I was still caught up on the Courtney thing. Don't get me wrong, like I said at the start of the book I'm definitely not ugly but when it came to me and Courtney she would take home the looks trophy.

"How can she be jealous ?"

"You're beautiful Janie."

"Yeah, but Courtney's stunning, everyone wants her looks." Wait, did Troy Salem just call me beautiful. Good thing I wasn't a hopeless romantic or I probably would have swooned right here on the spot.

"You really don't see yourself, do you Janie ?"

"I do so, I know I'm good looking but no where near as much as Courtney."  I couldn't even bring myself to care that Troy might think I'm very vain now.

"I think you're far more beautiful than Courtney, I thought that the first time I saw you in primary school."

Troy remembered me from primary school? Aw. I tried not to get too excited over the fact he had noticed me before.

"Thank you" I blushed.

"You obviously don't think the same about me though."

"What do you mean ?"

"You didn't even want to talk to me the other day."

I sighed. "Yeah, look, about that, I have to tell you something."

He nodded. "Sure."

"It's really embarrassing though."

"I wont tell" He promised. I thought about what had just happened with Courtney. Could I trust him? It didn't really matter because he needed to know I wasn't a snob.

"I can't talk to boys'" I looked at his feet it seemed easier this way. "Well, I can, but usually not over the age of eight years old."

"Oh I thought that was just a stupid rumour Courtney made up."

Oh. Excellent. My problem was now a rumour too.

"Little kids under the age of eight.Your little brothers friends?"

I nodded "How do you know Jamie? I was curious, Jamie didn't go to our school and Troy and I had definitely never hung out outside of school.

"I've seen you with him in town before and I asked my mum if you have any siblings and she said you had two."

I nodded "Okay."

"To be honest, I didn't know that good looking guy that pulled all the girls was your brother."

"Cobie?"

"Yeah. I thought he was your boyfriend."

I laughed despite myself. I was so glad I didn't have a drink in my mouth because I had this bad habit of laughing while drinking and it almost always shot out my nose.

Troy smiled, "I'm glad he's not your boyfriend."

I wanted to ask why but I felt myself going shy again. Troy seemed to sense this.

"So anyway, you can't usually talk to boys over the age of eight?"

"Right, so Mum signed me up to glee club because she thinks it will bring me out of my shell but then Eliott went and dissed the OC and I just couldn't take it."

Troy laughed, "Eliott can be a really nice guy sometimes but when he's a douche well yeah, he's a douche. We were all kind of happy to see him put in his place. So what about Juckson ?"

"He started talking to me about Linkin Park and I just can't stop talking about them once I start."

"So I haven't said the right thing yet?" Troy asked.

I wanted to lie and say that was it but I knew I couldn't. "That's not exactly it."

"What is it then?"

"Well", I didn't want to tell Troy this because I didn't know how he would take it but I had no choice now. "I kind of have a crush on you and you make me nervous which makes it worse."

I looked up to see Troy smiling. I didn't know if he was happy or amused that I had a crush on him.

"Why did you tell Courtney?"

"Troy's face darkened before he composed himself. "I was upset and needed someone to talk to."

"Why were you upset?"

"Because, well" Troy looked at the ground. "I kind of have a crush on you too and it felt like you weren't into me. It's the first time I've ever been jealous of Juckson too."

Wait, did I just hear what I think I did? Troy liked me and was jealous of Juckson because of me?

I grinned.

Troy mirrored my grin.

"So um, Janie?"

"Yes?"

"Since we both like each other, can I do something I've wanted to do since the first time I saw you?"

I was confused, "What do you want to do?"

Troy took two steps towards me and tucked a strand of my hair behind my ear.

I looked up at him to see he was looking down at me. No! He wasn't about to do what I thought he was, was he?

He moved his head in towards me. No! No! No! had I remembered to brush my teeth this morning? Was my hair okay? Oh god! I've never kissed anyone before! Will he be able to tell?

My thoughts were cut off by Troy's lips meeting mine. The kiss lasted ten seconds at the max but it was the best kiss ever! I know, I know, it's my first kiss but it's better than any kiss I could have ever imagined.

Troy pulled away and I stood there frozen to the spot. Should I say something? Oh! I should probably look at him! No, best not to actually. Did that kiss mean anything to him? It must have? What if it didn't? I haven't looked at him yet! Look up Janie!, look up!

All these thoughts were speeding around in my head. I had no idea what to do so I did the worst thing ever. I turned on my heal and I ran. It was, the ultimate fail.