Frozen by Fear [DEADLY SECRETS#1]

Kabanata 5

CHAPTER 5

ACE'S POV:

Alam kong madaming sekreto si Rose, pero hindi ko siya masisi kung hindi niya sasabihin dahil bago pa lang kaming nagkakilala. Perhaps there is something from her past that haunts her, whatever it is, I can see it in her eyes. 

Pero, ang damdaming ito ay bago pa lang sa akin at marahil bago rin sa kanya, so naniniwala ako sa kanya na sasabihin na niya iyon kapag siya'y handa na. Right now, I have a more pressing matter to deal with. Smoothing things over with Czev. Hindi yun matutuwa kapag nalaman niyang inagaw ko sa kanya si Rose. Pero, inagaw ko ba talaga sa kanya? Talaga bang siya ang naka-una? Maaaring siya ang naka-unang nakakita kay Rose sa club pero I talked to her first. I also kissed her first, yesterday at the beach.

So, Rose and I end up making out on the side of a building all of sixth period and decide to go to seventh period. Hindi parin ako makapaniwala na meron siyang dalang kutsilyo kapag pumapasok siya sa University. You would think that it would freak me out, but it didn't. It actually made me even hotter for her. The thought crossed my mind to just take her against the building. But, I figure, if I want more with her than I usually want with other girls, then I should probably treat her with a little more consideration than that.

Seriously though, bakit may dala-dala siyang knife? Kailangan niya bang protektahan ang kanyang sarili on a regular basis? What in her past involves the need for it? When we are walking to class, she asks, 

"So, yung sa note, what did you mean by the word 'secret'?" Tanong niya.

"What did you think I meant?" Pabalik kong tanong sa kanya.

"I asked you first." she says, with a pointed look.

"Well." I tell her nervously, 

"I didn't really mean anything in particular. May nararamdaman lang ako na ang daming sekreto ang tinatago mo. Maybe to protect yourself from getting hurt. I want you to know that I'll be here to listen when you're ready to talk."

WAVERLY ROSE'S POV:

I don't think so. I knew being around him would be a problem. Paano niya akong mabasa nang ganun kadali? I mean, he isn't right, not exactly. Marami akong bagay na tinatago sa ibang tao, all sorts of things. Who I am. What I am. Tama din siya tungkol sa pagproprotekta sa aking sarili para hindi masaktan. But, instead of protecting my emotions from getting hurt, like he thinks, I am protecting my life.

He sees through me better than anyone else, including Drew. I have been trained to hide my emotions and project only those feelings and thoughts that I choose too. I should have more control over it. Either he is really good at reading people, or when I'm around him, I let down my guard. Perhaps I am not doing as good of a job as I thought. 

Nakikita niya yung mga bagay na hindi ko gustong makita niya. I have always been able to control my facial expressions, body language and my eyes, so that people perceive what I want them too. That's all going to hell around Ace. About him being there when I am ready to talk? Hindi mangyayari yon. 

Ano ba ang kailangan kong sabihin sa kanya? That I'm an assassin hired to kill his father and that the only reason he ever met me in the first place is so that I can use him to get to make the kill? Am I insane? What am I doing, falling for a guy who would hate me if he knew the truth? Baka pwedeng si Drew na lang ang magpatuloy nitong mission para sakin? But, then I'd never see Ace again. I couldn't stand the thought of that. 

Since the moment I first looked at Ace's picture, meron na talaga akong nararamdaman sa kanya. At first it was just curiosity, but now it's turned into something more. Nung nakilala ko siya sa club, there was an instant attraction, but I brushed it aside. Since then, the more time I spend with him, the deeper my feelings go. It feels like we are being drawn together by forces of nature. If that's the case, when this is over, will I be comparing the ending to a natural disaster? Because, I can't see how this relationship can having a happy ending.