Frozen by Fear [DEADLY SECRETS#1]

Kabanata 12

KABANATA 12:

WAVERLY ROSE'S POV:

Stupid Rose. Ano ba ang iniisip ko? Obviously not with my brain. But, really? Natutulog kasama ang anak nang target? This isn't how I operate. Sloppy Waverly.

I gave too much of myself to Ace. Secrets. Love. Virginity. I may not have spoken the words to him, but I do love him.

Ace is my angel. He is everything good in this world. Unfortunately, I kill the bad things in this world. There's no place in my world for him and I don't belong in his world.

My world is filled with predators, suffering, drugs, rape and murder. His world is hanging out with friends, going to the movies, eventually graduating and going to college.

College isn't in the cards for me, unless a college student gets a hit put on him for using date-rape drugs on female co-eds. Of course, I don't get hired for such small time jobs.

It's the middle of the night and Ace is sleeping next to me. I brush back the hair that's fallen on his face. He's so handsome. I don't think I'll ever love any man the way I do him. Time to distance myself from the situation.

I slowly get out of bed and get dressed. I grab my things and step out onto the front porch. I call Drew on my cell. He answers with a groggy,

"Sup?"

"Come pick me up." I said softly.

"May nangyari ba?" Na-alamang tanong ni Drew.

"Not really. Come get me at the Evans beach house." I hang up and sit down on the steps.

Well, mission accomplished. Almost. I have John Evan's son wrapped around my finger. I can get access to the Evans home at any time. It was necessary for him to fall for me. However, it was not necessary for me to fall for him. It was definitely not necessary for me to have sex with him. Although, I'm glad my first time was with someone I care about.

Everything else I've told Ace is a lie, but my feelings aren't. I would die for him. I would kill for him. Of course, that's not saying much, coming from me. If he knew who I really was, would he still love me? I know he probably wouldn't love me if he knew that I was sent to kill his father. He said he loved me. No one has ever said that, besides Drew. I know my parents loved me, though. I wish I could remember them. I wish I could remember them telling me that they loved me. I'll always remember tonight. Ace telling me that he loves me. He could never understand how much that means to me. When Drew shows up, I get in the car and don't say a word. I don't feel like talking to anyone.

"Well?" Usisa ni Drew.

"Well what?" I ask belligerently, finally meeting his gaze.

"Holy crap, Rose! You didn't!" He yells at me.

"I don't know what you're talking about." Tumingin ako sa bintana, sinusubukang na huwag pansinin siya.

"You had sex with him, didn't you?" Something in his voice warns me that he's angry. I still refuse to look at him.

"Wala kang pakialam."

"I've been killing people for years, but this is the first time that I've ever wanted to murder someone," Drew says through clenched teeth.

"Don't you ever touch Ace! Promise me, Drew! Promise you won't ever hurt him!"

"Fine, fine. I won't hurt your little boyfriend." Drew then adds, "but I will fantasize about it."

"Drew." Pagbabanta ko sa kanya.

"Hey, it's a big brother's job to be upset about these things. I'm just trying to give you a little normalcy here, baby sis," he teases and I can tell that he is starting to calm down.