Midnight Ramblings

I'm sorry

The wind howled, reminding me of the wolves that used to live behind our house when I was young, before everything fell apart. Before my brother turned into a monster, before my mother died, and my father left us. Before I had to leave my brother in this God forsaken place.

The wind carried his voice to me, pleading and reminding me of when we were young and he had broken his arm. He had called to me as he was doing now.

"Sissy? Please don't leave me. I don't want to be left alone here. Sissy? Plese, PLEASE don't leave me here to die." 

Hearing those words, I almost broke down, falling to my knees in the snow, and finally letting go of the scream I had been holding in.

"WHY?" I screamed feeling the tears freeze as soon as they escaped my eyes, "WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE US! WE NEVER DID ANYTHING TO DESERVE THIS! LEAVE US ALONE!" 

I was glad the wind was blowing my way, not letting my brother hear me. I had temporarily shut down our bond so he couldn't feel or hear what I said. I opened it back up, stumbling from the fear and pain of betrayal he was feeling. 

I finally found the words to say, putting as much agony and loneliness I already felt in to the words, pushing them into his head.

"I'm sorry."