Midnight Ramblings

It sucks, but I promise; It. Gets. Better

It sucks when it feels as though the person you want to hold onto most is slipping right through your fingers. But you know you can't do anything about it, so you try to hold onto it but, like water, it slips and slides through your fingers and before you know it, it's gone. All the late nights, staying up and talking, telling each other off the future you see with one another. The secret kisses, the hands you held tight; they just....disappear. And you don't know what to do with yourself after they're gone. The days where you look forward to seeing them become days where you just want to lay in bed. They colourful, beautiful world you once saw becomes a grey, dull, lifeless existence.

But you go on. You go on because people still rely on you. They care for you. And you do the want to let them down. So, you get up, and you exist for awhile. Then, slowly, without you even knowing it.....you start living again. You start laughing again. Your world gains new colour. Your shoulders feel lighter. You don't want to just exist anymore. You want to LIVE.