She Is Home To You, But Everything To Me

As I Close My Eyes

I didn't know what to do.

Craig just stood there with his mouth gaping open.

I quickly shut the back door and pulled down my sleeves.

But Craig grabbed me by the arm, and walked back towards the store.

"Where are we going?" I asked.

Craig didn't say anything. He just kept tugging on my arm.

Craig pulled me into the bathroom and locked the door.

"Craig, what are you doing?" I asked backing up against the wall.

Craig sighed sadly. "Let me see your wrists." He said.

I shook my head and pulled my sleeves down further.

"Raven..." Craig walked up to me, "Let me see your wrists. I promise I won't tell anyone." He said softly.

I took a deep breath.

I slowly pulled up my sleeves, revealing my cuts.

Craig put a hand over his mouth.

I was about to pull my sleeves back down, but Craig stopped me.

He softly trailed his fingertips along the cuts.

"Why?" He breathed.

I rolled down my sleeves.

"I'm hurting Craig." Was all I said.

Craig put his hands on my shoulders. "Have you been eating?" He asked.

I softly shook my head.

I knew what he was gonna ask. So I lifted up my shirt so he could see my stomach.

He gasped again.

"Raven...w-why?"

I sighed and pulled down my shirt.

"I feel alone Craig. I'm just depressed." I answered.

Craig looked at me with sad eyes.

And then, Craig hugged me.

That's when I broke down. I began crying on Craig's shoulder.

"Shh it's okay." He said softly. He knew why I was depressed.

Once I was done crying, I pulled away and wiped my eyes.

I looked in the bathroom mirror.
"I look like crap." I said.

Craig shook his head. "No you don't."

I slightly smiled.

Craig hugged me again.

"Happy birthday Raven." He said before we walked back out.

When we got back in the car, everyone asked where we went.

We didn't really answer them.

"Steph's coming over today." Corey said to me.

"Fabulous." I replied sarcastically.

When we got back to the house, Stephanie was already there.

I groaned and started to walk up the stairs.

"I'd like everyone in the living room." Corey said mostly to me.

I sighed and sat in the corner of the couch.

I watched Stephanie stand up and look at everyone, and soon Corey did too.

"I'm pregnant." Stephanie said happily.

My breath hitched.

Those words felt like a punch to the gut.

I felt tears in my eyes. But I held them in.

Everyone seemed so happy.

Everyone got up and graduated them.

I just sat there.

I was right. Corey really did want to get rid of me. I guess I'm not the daughter he wanted. He could've just told me he didn't want me.

Wow. My dad's girlfriend announces that she's pregnant on my birthday.

Some birthday huh?

I sighed and got up from the couch. It didn't look like anyone noticed me.

I knew what I was gonna do.

I would go to the studio.

I would walk.

I was walking out the door, but someone grabbed me.

I turned around.

It was Craig.

"Where are you going?" He asked softly.

I turned to him "I'm going to the studio." I answered.

"Well, you need a ride." He said.

I didn't say anything.

Craig grabbed his keys and we walked outside to the car.

And then we sped away.