She Is Home To You, But Everything To Me

Realization

*Corey's POV three days later*

"I'll see you later then." I said to Steph before kissing her on the lips.

She smiled and walked out the front door.

I smiled to myself.

I couldn't beleive me and Steph were gonna have a baby!

I mean, I've never had a child before.

This was gonna be a huge change for me.

I walked back up to the living room and sat down next to Craig and Sid.

Sid smiled at me. But Craig didn't do anything. He just slightly scowled.

But I just shrugged it off and started talking to Sid.

"Do you want a boy or a girl?" Sid asked randomly.

"I want a girl." I replied smiling.

I heard Craig scoff. "You already have a girl." He mumbled under his breath.

I raised an eyebrow at him, which made him scowl even more.

"What're you talking about?" I asked him.

Then Craig did something of the unexpected.

He grabbed me by the shirt and brought his lips close to my ear so I could only hear what he was saying.

"Your daughter has been waiting for you. She was waiting for you to awknowlage her again, but you were to busy to notice. And she was falling into depression, but you didn't see it." He growled.

I looked at him.

"Raven thought you would change." He finally said.

I felt my eyes widen.

Without a word, I got up and walked up to Raven's room.

Her door wasn't all the way closed. So I peeked through to see what she was doing.

But I didn't see her.

I opened the door all the way. And I still didn't see her.

'Where was all her stuff?' I asked myself whilst looking around.

I looked in her closet. And it was half empty.

I looked in her dressers. And there was barely anything in it.

Then I noticed all of her improtant stuff was gone too.

My breath hitched as realazation hit me.

She was gone.

I couldn't beleive it.

But before I could do anything, I noticed a notebook on her nightstand.

I walked over to it, and picked it up with shaky hands.

I sat on her bed and began reading.

Corey,

If you're reading this, then you probably already figured out that I ran away.

Well, I did.

I'll make this quick since this probably isn't really worth your time.

I left because I knew I didn't belong here, I was tired of being ignored, and I knew you woudn't care again.

I was tired of being the shadow behind Stephanie.

I felt unimportant.

I fell into depression as I waited for you to talk to me about something that didn't have to do with your girlfriend.

I cut myself.

I felt alone and didn't know what to do.

And all I have to say is I'm sorry.

I'm sorry I wasn't the daughter you wanted. And I'm sorry that I became such a burden to you.

Thank you for helping me for the past years and being a father.

And thank you for saving me.

You don't have to worry about me now.

Because I'm out of your life.

I wish the best for you, Stephanie, and your baby.

Raven

I set the note down and shut my eyes.

This was all my fault.

I had lost my daughter.

Honestly, I didn't really feel anything.

I felt numb.

She had hurt herself because of me.

I put my hands over my eyes and cried.

I had made my daughter depressed.
I was supposed to always be by her side. And I ignored her. Just because I found someone. And I kept it from her for the longest time.

I looked back at the notebook.

I grabbed it and began looking through.

It was just like when she left with her fake mother. But she didn't want to go. It was her decision to leave this time.

On the first page, the top of it read, 'Lyrics that Corey won't care about.'

I started reading it curiously.

It's been years since anyone, could be a friend.

It's the fear that kills the feeling, in the end.

Can we face it? Can we shape it? Can we really die?

If rain is what you want, all you have to do is close your eyes.

Just close your eyes.

I am watching resurection start to crawl.

Is there any chance in hell? Any chance at all?

Do we need it? Do we see it? Is it really there?

If rain is what you want, then take your seats. Enjoy the fall.

Enjoy the fall.

The only thing deeper than my last breath.

The only thing darker than my last death.

Is the panic, the static. I've come back from the dead.

For my cities.

We'll never sleep again.

I couldn't beleive Raven wrote that. It was amazing and before I showed no interest in the idea.

I rubbed my eyes and got up from Raven's bed.

Still holding the notebook, I walked out of her room.

I walked down the stairs calmly and put the front door.

I was gonna record that song for her.

For my lost daughter.