South Shields

Chapter 11

- PERRIE -

The sound of Johanna's heels touching the white and shining floor echoes when we walk into the so called "hallway". It is as big as my living room, and I feel amazed. Sure, I was here at her party a few weeks ago, but I didn't mind the size of her house. The only thing I could think of was the party, because I was nervous and curious about it.

"Let's go to my room." Johanna says, and Alex and I follow her up the stairs.

There's a hallway right in front of us when we get up, and I kind of remember it from the party. It almost reminds me of a hotel corridor.
She opens a door, which I understand leads to her room, and when I walk in to the room I can see it's huge. It is at least twice as big as mine, and mine isn't the smallest one I've seen.

"Your room is very nice." I tell Johanna.

"Thanks." she answers, as if she's used to that comment. "I re-decorated it a few weeks ago, and it's just much nicer now, isn't it Alex?"

Alex nods.

"And about a year ago we painted the walls and bought new furniture, and I feel like it's much more mature now." she tells me, even though I didn't ask. "I love it." she adds, as if I didn't understand that.

Alex sits down in a white armchair, and Johanna is looking through her wardrobe. I don't know what to do. Should I sit on the bed? Is it to daring? I look at Alex for help, and when she realizes I, with my face, asks her what I should do, she points at the bed.
I quietly walk over to Johanna's bed and sit down. It feels soft, and her sheets are in a nice turquoise colour. It reminds me of the sea in Spain.

"Are you girls hungry?" Johanna asks. I immediately look at the watch on the opposite all from me. A quarter to two. I'm not really hungry, but I don't want to be rude and say no. Would it even be rude?

"A little, yeah." Alex says. "You Pez?"

"Yeah, a little." I answer.

"I'll tell Penelope to make us some sandwiches. Stay here, I'll be back." Johanna says, and then disappears from the room.

"How is her nice so big, and so nice?" I ask Alez when Johanna's gone.

"Her family's rich, and her Mrs. Evans has good taste in furnishing and such things. I'm very impressed."

"Yeah, me too." I say.

"Penelope will be here in a minute." Johanna informs us as she enters the room again. She sits down in an armchair beside her full-length mirror by the closet.

"So, Perrie... What have you been up to lately?" she asks me.

"Well, I've been working, and... hanging out, I guess." I answer.

"That sounds... fun?" she says with a mean tone in her voice. I've never liked her, so that's okay for me.

I didn't come here to be with her, I came her to think about something else. Since Jade was hanging out with Johanna I actually didn't really have any choice.

"I could tell you what I've been up to, since it's a little more interesting." she says, looking away from me and onto her phone for a second. Probably to check the time.

"I don't want to know..." I whisper, most to myself. Johanna doesn't hear me. Instead she begins to ramble about how she managed to finallty find an apartment in town and that she'll move out in a month.

"That's great." I comment without enthusiasm when she's finished.

"I know right! You're such a good listener too, Perrie. Did you know that?" she says with a 100% sarcasm.

-

The sandwiches that Penelope made for us are delicious. She broguth us some ice cold water too, with a lemon on th side of the glass. Nice.

We've been at Johanna's house for more than an hour, and so far we haven't done anything. Well, except for gossiping about people I don't know, watching Johanna try on outfits for parties and stuff, and now eating our sandwiches while gossiping. We have done something, just not anything that have made me stop thinking about Jade.

How is it so damn hard to stop thinking about her? My world doesn't revolve around her, and I'm sick of her face popping up in my head all the time.

And it's only been a day since she told me she wanted to be more than friends.

I don't really know how I feel about that... Should I be flattered that someone thinks I'm attractive in that way? Should I be disappointed that it is a girl? Should I be angry because Jade held it in? Would I have done something different if I knew how Jade felt?

I have a lot of questions, but sadly no answers.

Oh, one more question.

Should I go home instead of staying here since I'd still think about Jade just as much if I we're in my bedroom?

Yes I should.

At least I've got one answer to one of my many questions.

-

I'm back home. I'm in my bedroom. I'm in my bed. I'm using my computer. I'm happy again.

And I know exactly what I'm going to do.

I open up Google and search. There's a lot of results, and I decide to choose the first one. I sign up, and I'm in. Just like that, and I'm going to get my thoughts of Jade away. Maybe everything will be easier.

I hope so.