South Shields

Chapter 6

- PERRIE -

We stand in front of each other, looking into each other's eyes. I can't tell what Jade is going to do, and I don't dare to do anything myself. Therefore I wait.

"That was... great." Jade finally says. I nod.

Without saying anything else, we get closer to each other again. This time it's not just a kiss. Jade's hands travels up my hips to my waist, and soon her hands are on my neck. My arms hug her waist, holding her close to my body as we make out.

I've never kissed like this, and it feels like I won't do it again in the close future after this. Jade's kissing is just amazing. Her tongue is dancing with mine in the right speed, and it gives me a good feeling inside.

As we make out longer, Jade's hands reaches the back of my dress. I feel nervous about what's going to happen, but I try to push it away. Her hands finds the zipper to my dress, and slowly she drags it down. Suddenly everything feels wrong, and I take two steps back.

"What is it?" Jade asks me, confused.

"I-I don't... I don't know."

"Did I do anything wrong?" She sounds hurt.

"No. It's just..., it's me."

I try to push the zipper up my back to my neck again, but it doesn't go all the way up.

"Bye." I finish, unlock the door, and run out of the room with my clutch in my hand.

I take my phone out of my clutch. As I force myself through the big crowd, that seem to have grown, I call a taxi to pick me up. It'll be here in a few minutes.

The clock on the phone shows 11:46 pm. It's not too late, so maybe mom and Jonnie will be awake. I hope they're asleep.

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A few minutes after I've got out from the house the cab arrives, and I quickly jump inside. Happily, Jade didn't find me, or she didn't follow me out, and I feel a relief inside of me.

As I sit in the back of the car, my thoughts wanders to Jade. I don't know what I feel right now. I liked the kisses, but something said 'no' when she got further. It felt wrong, but it also felt right. Suddenly, I feel my eyes starting to get wet, but I hold it in until I've payed the taxi driver.

I rush into my house (and I was right thinking that both mom and Jonnie would be awake) running straight upstairs after I've taken my shoes off. I lay on the bed, not caring about my makeup making the pillow dirty as I bury my face into it, letting the tears make it wet.

Why am I even crying? There's no reason for it.

I don't know. I don't know why, but I do know that it feels right. So I continue crying.

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After a while, I don't know how long, someone knocks on my door.

"Perrie, love? Are you there?" Mom asks me. I don't answer. "Perrie?" I hear her voice again.

I bury my face deeper into the pillow.

I hear the door open, and Mom's footsteps move closer to the bed.

"Honey? What happened?" she asks with a soft voice as she sits down at the edge of the bed. 

"Nothing..." I mumble into the wet fabric of the pillow.

"Honey..." mom sighs, laying down on her back beside me on the bed. "You know you can tell me anything."

"Mmm." I mumble again.

"Whatever you're sad or angry about, you can tell me. I won't get angry." She kisses my hair. 

I turn my head so I can see her face. She gives me a small smile that comforts me. I'm about to tell her, but I regret it and starts to cry into the pillow again.

I don't now why it's hard, but there was something about Jade that felt great. She felt special in a weird way. I don't know in which way, because I've never felt like this.

- JADE -

It's been about an hour and a half since Perrie ran out of that bedroom. Damn, that girl knew how to kiss.

She was so hot, standing there in her black dress, watching me, and that got too much. I couldn't hold back. But maybe it would've been better if I had held it back. Maybe it got too much for her.

I didn't follow her when she ran out. I knew she wouldn't want to see me, so I stayed in the room, wondering what went wrong. But I know it was my fault, it has to be.

I'm tired of this boring party, so I decide to get to the bus stop and get home.

It's too hard to walk in my heels, at least when I've been drinking, so I walk the 5 minute walk with my heels in my hand.

I get to the bus stop only 5 minutes after the last bus was here, so now I have to wait for the next bus for about 15 minutes.

I sit down on the little bench beside the sign that shows that there's a bus stop here, and pick my phone up. I scroll through Twitter and Facebook. When I scroll through Instagram I see many pictures from the party. People dancing, making out, having fun.

"Hey." I hear a voice from the right of me. I look up to see a tall dark-haired guy looking at me.

"Hi." I respond and look down at my phone again.

"What are you doing?" I don't want to answer.

"Scrolling through Instagram."

In the corner of my eye I see him sit down at the bench, a little too close to me. Therefore I move a little to the left.

"I'm not dangerous."

"Who knows?" I say sarcastically, but he laughs. It makes me feel uncomfortable.

"You're right." I don't answer or look back up at him.

"Have you ever had that feeling when you see someone, and you just want to kiss the person because the person is so hot?" he asks me.

Now I look up at him with a confused look.

"Uhm, no." I don't want to admit that it was exactly what I felt when Perrie came to me when I sat in that sofa.

"Oh. Not even when you're going to, I don't know..., the bus stop and seeing that guy coming and sitting down beside you." he asks.

I feel like I have to puke.

"Do you wanna hear a funny story?" I ask him.

"Sure." he smiles. I think he wants to be flirty.

"Your attempt of flirting doesn't work because I'm not straight." I smile. He looks at me, confused.

"What?"

"I'm not straight." I repeat.

"What the fuck!?" He stands up, reacting like most people do when they find out. "A hot chick like you is a lesbian?! How disgusting!"

I put a crooked, uncomfortable smile on my lips just before the bus arrives and I stand up from the bench. 

(A/N: as usual I really hope you liked this chapter, please vote :) love you)