South Shields

Chapter 10

- JADE -

"Yeah, I... I understand. You're not gay, and I've been too blind to see it."

"What? Jade what are you saying?" Perrie asks in confusion.

"What I'm saying is that I felt good when we kissed that night, and I've had faith that you would realize that you felt the same."

"It felt good..." she starts, but I cut her off.

"If it had felt good enough you would have felt different about me right now!" I can't help but get angry. Not angry with Perrie, but angry with myself. "You think of me as a friend, right?"

"Yeah." she whispers.

"Mhmm. And I just wish that you felt different about me. I'd rather have you dislike me than seeing me as a friend. It's hard to get out of the friend zone, and-"

"Wait..." Perrie cuts me off this time. "So you're saying you want to date me?"

"Yes!" I don't dare to hope she has come to a new, and better, resolution. 

"Oh..." she sighs, and she looks surprised. "Thats... That's not what I... What I thought." she finally gets out. "I thought that kiss was a ''mistake'', like that it didn't mean anything."

"Wha- You knew I was a lesbian...?"

"Yeah, but you knew I was drunk!" Perrie seems a little irritated. Maybe she's confused.

"Calm down." I tell her, but she doesn't listen to me.

"I was drunk, and you took advantage of me, Jade!"

"No I di-"

"Are you my "friend-" she makes quotation marks with her fingers when she says friend. "-because you've been hoping to make me date you?! Are you faking being friends with me?!" she shouts. Perrie seems very upset, and I can feel my stomach twisting.

"Absolutely not Perrie! What the-" Once again she cuts me off.

"Jade, can you... Can you go?"

"But I-"

"Can you please leave me alone?" she states more than asks me.

"Of course, if that's what you want..." I whisper, suddenly afraid of what Perrie will do. Will it get too much for her to handle?

I silently walk out of her room and through the hallway. Before walking down the stairs I turn around to see Perrie sitting on her bed, looking out through her window. I feel bad for her. What have I done? What if she won't talk to me anymore? If so, I swear I'll move out of this town.

- PERRIE -

Has everything been a lie? Has Jade been pretending to be my friend so that I'd start to date her? I'm starting to question everything about Jade now.
She hasn't been giving me any signals for the past few weeks, so I feel a little confused. I thought she didn't care about the kiss, but I guess I was all wrong.

-

It's lunch time, but I don't really feel like eating. I want to be alone. Or, no. I don't want to be alone, because all I do is thinking about Jade. What should I do? What will by my next move?

I think I need to get out, maybe meet someone else. But the only one I know is Alex. I'm not sure I want to meet her, but maybe it will do me good. I'm still angry at her because of her feelings towards Jade, but maybe I can ignore them for a few hours.

I decide that I'll call her.

"Pez?" I hear Alex in the phone.

"Hiii Alex, how are you?" I greet her.

She ignores my question.

"It's so nice to hear from you! It's been a few weeks."

"Yeah it has..." I want to get to the point.

"So, I was calling to see if you wanted to hang out... or something?"

"I'm sorry Pez... I'm with Johanna right now, maybe tomorrow?" She actually sounds a little sad for me.

"Oh... I'd just need some company to get on other thoughts today, but okay..." I tell her, and I'm about to hang up.

"Wait... Hang on." she says, and I do. Half a minute later she gets back to me.

"Johanna and I will pick you up in like, half an hour. Is that okay for you?"

"Are you serious? That would be really nice." It feels like I'm about to cry.

"Yeah of course. See ya!" she says, and I can hear that she smiles, and hangs up.

I'll be honest, I don't want to hang out with Johanna, not at all. But, I believe it's the best for me right now, since I feel pretty confused and in need of company. 

To get ready to hang out with Johanna, the daughter to the very rich Mr. Evans, I run upstairs to find a suiting dress. I don't really think a pair of jeans and a T-shirt is appropriate if you're a guest in their house. Especially not if it's the first time. I've heard some stuff about Johanna's parents, and they seem a little conservative. Maybe they expect girls to wear dresses or skirts and not pants.

I find a purple dress in my wardrobe, and I decide that it'll be a good choice for today's occasion. The fabric is pretty thick, and it's a light purple colour. It's about knee-length and the sleeves almost reach my elbow. Since the weather is getting hotter and it's sunny outside, I think it fits very well.

I try to put my hair into a ponytail, but decide to let it out. It goes better with the dress. I put my white Converse on, add some mascara to my eyelashes and then I'm ready to go.

-

"Hiiii Pez!" Alex shouts as I get out. I smile back at her as I lock the door.

"Hi." I greet both Alex and Johanna as I get closer to the car.

"Get in!" Alex smiles.

How can she always have a smile on her lips?

-

"This is my house." Johanna says as we reach the huge white house at the outskirts of South Shields. We pull up at the driveway and Johanna parks her white Cooper beside a beautiful red car, which I think is a Ferrari. I'm not that into cars, so I can't assure you. Sorry.

Just like when I went to the party, the house is very, very big. It almost seems bigger now than then.

"Oh, right. You've already been here." she reminds herself.

"Come on Pez! Don't stand there and drool on your nice dress." Alex says and grabs my arm.

I wonder what we'll do. And I definately wonder just how awkward I'll feel in this house at daytime.

(yayy, I'm so excited to be writing again! :) I hope you liked this chapter too xx)