South Shields

Chapter 31

- PERRIE -

"Good morning." Jesy is eating her breakfast which consists of a sandwich with marmalade and a cup of tea.

"Good morning." I answer. "Leigh-Anne's not up yet?"

"No, she's still sleeping. She has always been a real sleeper, ever since we were kids."

I don't respond to Jesy. Instead I just nod to show her I get it.

For breakfast I decide to make a sandwich, slice some watermelon and make myself a cup of tea. When I'm finished I sit down beside Jesy to eat.

"No sign of Jade today?" I ask right before I yawn. Even though it's almost 10 am, I feel tired.

"No, not at all. I have no idea where she is..." Jesy sighs. "I've tried to call her, but she hasn't answered. She hasn't responded to any of my texts either."

"Strange." I say and take a sip of my hot tea.

There's a short silence when neither me or Jesy knows what to say. It's not awkward, it's just... calming. Sometimes, silence is a good thing. It can make one's mood better. Well, at least my mood. There's something with silence that makes me calm and allows me to relax for a moment. It reminds me that I don't have to stress.

Then, I remember I haven't told Jesy, Leigh-Anne nor Jade that I'm moving out of here in less than two weeks.

"By the way..." I begin telling Jesy. She looks at me instead of outside the window, and suddenly I feel unsure about telling her I will move. It feels like I'm, in a weird way, betraying her.

"Yeah?"

I continue. "Well, I didn't tell you I'm moving, did I...?"

"What?" She looks shocked. "No you didn't!" For a moment I wonder if she's angry, if she actually feels betrayed.

"Yeah, I just... I..." I don't really know what to say.

"Congrats Pez!" she says and gives me a hug even though she sits down about one meter away.

"Thanks."

"Wait... Have you told your mother? I know you were worried about... things between you two."

"Yeah, I visited her yesterday before I came home to eat dinner. She said she was proud of me for finally getting my own place." I can't help but smile as I tell her, because having my mom feeling proud of me is a feeling I've hardly ever experienced.

"And I asked Lucas to help me move my stuff from the house, so I guess everything will go just as I've planned." I continue.

When I look at Jesy she doesn't seem as thrilled about my move anymore.

"Oh... Doesn't Lucas have to drive all the way from Middlesbrough to get here?" she asks, and suddenly I feel defensive of my man.

"Yes. But he told me he would love to help me move all my stuff. And, if it gets late he could always stay the night once we've moved my bed."

"Yeah..." Jesy says, and afterwards she whispers something that I can't hear.

"What?" I ask.

"No nothing... Good for you, and for Lucas that you can solve it."

"Yeah..." I respond. "What's on your mind Jesy? Why are you acting weird now?" I ask suspiciously.

"I am? Well, I'm not thinking of anything in particular."

"You're such a bad liar, Jesy. You always say what you think, so why not tell me the truth now?"

"I am telling you the truth!" she protests.

"No, you're not!" I insist, now standing up from my chair. "Why won't you tell me?!" I shout, probably waking Leigh-Anne. But, right now that's not what prioritize. In a hurry I drink up my cup of tea and put it in the sink. I have already eaten my sandwich, but I grab the plate with watermelons to go away from here.

"Perrie...?" Jesy asks.

"Talk to me when you're ready to tell me the truth." I say as I walk out of the kitchen.

"Perrie! You're overreacting!" Jesy calls from the kitchen. I don't think I do.

Okay, maybe a little.

But, in my defense, Jesy and I have become good friends, and therefore it kind of hurts me that Jesy won't tell me what she has on her mind. It's obvious that it has something to do with Lucas and me, and that's the main reason to why I think it's important that she talks to me about it. She may think I'm overreacting, but I just want to feel like we have an honest friendship.

As I take a bite of the last piece of watermelon, I hear the door to the small balcony open. When I turn my head to look who it is, I already know the answer. It's Jesy.

She sits down on the chair in front of me, not looking me in the eyes. She's quiet for a while, and she doesn't start talking until I've eaten all of the watermelon.

"I didn't want to tell you the truth because... in one way I don't want you and Lucas to be together." she begins. "It's not that I don't like you, since that's how I believe you thoguht about it."

"Yeah." I answer, but actually I'm in shock. Why doesn't she like me and Lucas together? Should I ask why?

Jesy caught me off guard. What have Lucas or I done to her to make her dislike us as a couple? Or does she see something in him that I don't?

"Why?" I ask, looking at her. "Why don't you like me and Lucas together?"

"Because... You know Jade has had a crush on you, and she still has. I don't want to see her sad all the time." she tells me and ends with a sigh.

"Oh..." is everything I manage to say. Is that really true? To know that Jade still has a crush on me flatters me, but at the same time I start to feel a little bit unsure again. Why does Jade always make me unsure about my relationships with people. Whenever I think about her feelings for me, I get confused. Questions like, Should I still talk to this person? or Is this person the right one to hang out with? always pop up.

Then, out of nowhere, I get an idea.

"Jesy...?"

(Okay idrk what I think about this chapter, but I'm trying to figure out what's going to happen later. At least I got a chapter up for you without letting you guys wait 2 months ;) xx)