My Name Is Dan (Phan AU)

chapter four

chapter four

Phil and I left the movie choice to PJ. Meaning, there was really only one option in his eyes; Star Wars.

We really couldn't complain, since it also happened to be our favourite movie. But, with it being our favourite movie, we had gotten to the point where we'd seen it what would be considered one too many times. But, again, we didn't necessarily mind.

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Not that long had passed from the time we left to the time we arrived at the cinema. After only about ten minutes, we were there; and after about five minutes of sitting on the car and waiting for PJ to find somewhere to park the car, he dropped us off in the front of the building and told us to wait for him.

So, here we were. Both Phil and I were here, sitting in awkward silence and waiting for our friend. It had only been about a minute or two since PJ had dropped us off, but it felt like it had been an eternity.

I awkwardly stared at the ground, only to suddenly look up at Phil. "Why can't you tell me who you like?" is exactly what poured out of my mouth before I was able to properly think of what I was going to say.

Idiot, I thought to myself, mentally facepalming but still waiting for Phil's answer.

"I just... Can't?" was his very hesitant reply.

"Why though? What reason do you have? You tell, like, everything to me. Why is this any different?"

His words came out so fast and jumbled that I was only able to pick out a few. The only words I heard were 'because,' 'you,' and 'sorry.'

I tried to form any coherent sentence that could be a response to my question with those words.

Because you know him, sorry.

Because I just can't tell you, sorry.

Because it's you, sorry.

I doubt it's that last one.

"Wait, sorry, what did you say?" I asked, my cheeks probably turning a pinkish colour; partially from embarrassment of not hearing what he said, partially because of the least likely but still possible answer he had for me. I looked back down at the ground.

"I said because it's you," he replied quietly, in a shy voice.

Crap. "Wait, are you actually serious right now?" I asked, obviously quite surprised.

"Of course I'm serious. Why would I even joke about this oh my god."

"Well, since you told me that, I also have a thing to tell you," I sort of blurted out without thinking.

"Oh? Okay. Go ahead."

Wow. I'm an idiot. He probably thinks I'm going to tell him I like him back... Which I do, but that's not really what I had in mind. "So like I know you're gay and everything..." is how I started it. Wow. Best way to start a conversation.

"Yeah. And...?"

"Well... I don't know, let me just cut right to the point," I continued. "I'm not actually a boy oops?" I said quickly, since I was nervous.

After about twenty seconds, I got a slow response. "... What do you mean...?"

"I mean you technically have a crush on a girl?"

"How though."

"I'm transgender. I was born a female and still am a female when you really get into details. Wait no that sounded a lot less innocent than I intended it to. Whoops. I should probably just stop talking."

It was silent for a few moments before Phil asked, "So wait, let me get this straight, you're a girl?"

"Technically, yeah."

"Oh. But you're a boy."

"Technically still a girl."

"But you're a boy to me, Dan," he replied slowly, obviously trying his hardest to word his sentence correctly.

I paused. This is probably one of the best responses I've gotten to coming out, other than PJ's of course. "Are you serious?"

"I- Of course!" he replied cheerfully.

"... Thank you, Phil," I said slowly, looking up at him and finally making proper eye contact rather than just glancing up every few seconds.

"You really don't have to thank me. I didn't do much."

"Yes you did. You accepted me. That's literally all I could ask for, you spork."

"You're welcome."

I found myself thinking, Should I hug him? I should hug him. I'm gonna hu- but my thoughts were interrupted when I felt a pair of arms wrap around me. Phil was hugging me.

Though I was slightly taken aback, after a moment or two of the awkward one-sided hug, I hugged Phil back, My heart felt like it was going to explode.

We sat there like that for a few minutes. In an almost completely motionless hug other than tightening our grip on each other every few moments. And I loved it. I absolutely loved those few minutes. I know it's not much, but I also know that within those minutes, I felt nearly invincible. Like nothing in the world could hurt me.

And then PJ ran up. "Hey guys! Sorry it took so long to find a parking spot. You two lovebirds ready?"

I quickly pulled away from Phil, slightly startled by PJ's sudden appearance.

"Of course I'm ready!" Phil said happily, standing up and reaching down to help me up. I grabbed his hand and he pulled me up, with my own help of course.

"Aww," I heard PJ exclaim loudly.

I very subtly glared at him so Phil wouldn't see, but PJ still got the point and stopped 'fangirling' over Phil and I.

Quickly, I grabbed Phil's hand and started to lead him into the movie theater, PJ following close behind.

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Author's Note: This update was supposed to go out two weeks ago but apparently I forgot to press 'publish' and never noticed. Sorry for the inconvenience. I'm going to also try to get back onto an update schedule, so look forward to that.
Anyway, thanks for reading. Peace out. Stay rad. ♡♡
P.S. This isn't exactly my best update and I'm sorry for that but I hope you enjoyed anyway. ^.^

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