My Name Is Dan (Phan AU)

chapter eight

chapter eight

Phil's P.O.V.

I'm confused. I'm confused about everything.

I'm confused about what gender I like, I'm confused about who I like, I'm confused about my relationship status, and I'm confused about Dan.

Dan told me that he was actually a girl, but I know he's not. Even though he is right in front of me with boobs and everything, I still know he's not a girl. But that's the part that makes it confusing. I'm not necessarily attracted to what he has, I'm just attracted to him.

But I'm also attracted to his best friend, who has everything of what I like. And I don't know what to think of that. I know I like Dan, but there's our problem. I like Dan, but I don't like Dan. It's hard to explain, when you really try to get it out into words.

I don't know if I'm dating Dan or not. He likes me, I like him, but we never officially asked each other anything. So I'd assume we weren't dating, and honestly I'm not sure if I'm ready to date him yet. I'm still confused, and I can't do it yet. I can't do anything that I'll regret later.

But Dan. He's the thing that I'm most confused about. I don't know why he makes me feel this way. I don't know what it is about him. Maybe it's his somehow amazingly beautiful brown eyes, or his semi-long flippy hair, or his striking smile, the one that could blow everyone away. Or maybe it's him. Maybe it's his charming personality or just the fact that he's different- no, unique- compared to everybody else. He's not one of those people that walk around school that are practically clones of another human being. He's him. He's Dan.

Maybe that's why.

But then there's PJ. Him, with his beautifully pale blue-green eyes, and the way that his curly hair falls naturally into his face sometimes, and his smile. That amazing smile. He could blind someone with his smile, and he smiles so much that it always makes me so happy that I'm able to see it almost every day. The way he walks, talks, and does normal everyday things makes me feel like I'm floating. I don't know what to make of that, but I do know that I am attracted to PJ and everything he does, but I'm not sure how I'm attracted to him and Dan at the same time. I'm only supposed to like one of them, and only one of them likes me.

But that's the thing. Does only one of them like me?

"Phil, are you alright? You've been staring at the ceiling for ten minutes now," PJ joked, poking my arm lightly.

I blinked quickly, coming out of my own thoughts. "Huh? Oh, yeah, I'm fine," I blurted out quickly, glancing at him and at Dan who seemed to be sitting almost on top of each other.

"Whatever you say, Hot Stuff," PJ said, his lips breaking out into a smile as he let out a bit of laughter.

"PJ, you are literally the straightest guy I know, don't go around doing that," Dan replied, pushing PJ over a little bit.

PJ grabbed onto Dan to make sure that he didn't fall off of the couch, and then objected by saying simply, "Everybody's at least a little gay, Danny Boy," and once again laughing.

 Within only a few seconds, both of them were laughing, and I was sitting there watching as I continued to be confused about absolutely everything.

Does only one of them like me?

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Author's Note: Screams because I didn't notice that Chapter Seven had 10 votes? I'm not entirely sure how long it's had that many votes, but I'm sorry this chapter wasn't out as soon as we got to 10 votes! This is a bit of a shorter chapter too, sorry about that. Also, did you enjoy the P.O.V. change? I figured I'd do something a little bit different! (Please don't hate me for making it like this I promise I have something planned). Ahh! Anyway, thanks for reading, peace out nerds, stay rad. <3 <3

(Goal for next update: 10 Votes)

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