Finding My Way Back|| Erica and Cyn [Completed]

Chapter 5: Little Man Syndrome

Erica POV

I sat outside the gate nodding along with the woman on the phone. "I'll sign everything tomorrow and I'll definitely have the deposit ready. Okay.  Thanks again for finding this place such short notice. See you tomorrow"

I hang up the phone with my realtor thanking god she found me a nice two bedroom Condo in two days.

She was one of the best in LA. She helped Shad and I pick out the house he was renting now. No shade.

That was another reason I was letting go of this engagement. Cyn was the main goal of course. But Shad just wasn't the man I once thought he was.

I noticed it a few months back when money started getting tight. He was angrier. Not physically violent but definitely verbally abusive.

Now I gave him a run for his money with my mouth sometimes but we'd always end up having amazing make up sex. But there was more that you needed in a marriage besides great sex .

Sympathy was one thing I could never get from him. When I lost our baby and felt the need to speak on it, I was no longer the fiancé he was in love with. No, now I was this media hungry bitch...truthfully I just wanted to share my story with other women who went through what I went through.

No I wasn't completely in love with this man, but when I found out I was pregnant I was completely in love with my baby.  Any one could see how much I loved King.  He was my baby, I loved him more than life itself. I was a lot of things, bad and good but I was a damn good mother.

I finally pull  up closer to the gate and put the code in. It opens and I pull my Mercedes in the driveway. I'm sure after I do this I won't be sleeping here. So there's  no point in pulling into the garage.

I unlock the front door and head upstairs to my closet...which was actually one of the bedrooms. Between Shad's shoes and mine, the master closet just wasn't enough.

I start pulling some stuff off the racks. Shad wasn't here yet...thank god. I had some time to get the important stuff into my car.

I went back and forth between the closet and car for about 15 mins. I couldn't take all my shoes but I got the most important ones. Of course all of my loubs!

The rest of the stuff would have to wait or if he was petty enough he'd throw it away. Most of what was left was shit he'd bought me anyway. I was happy to leave it behind.

I go to the bathroom to start collecting my makeup and I hear the door open. I don't say anything just look at myself in the mirror.

"You can do this Erica. In and out..." I say in a soft whisper.

I take a deep breath jogging down the steps. I bend the corner to the kitchen and see him going through the fridge.

I take a seat at the island, I gently slide off the ring and cusp it in my hand.

"Hey, how was it on set today?" I ask breaking the silence.

"Long as hell." He says simply

"We need to talk...well I need to talk to you" I pause and he stands on the opposite side of the island. "Wassup?"

"I wanna give you this back." I slide the ring across the granite countertop and continue speaking. "I just don't feel like being married is the right move. I feel like you just know when it's right. After I lost the baby...I knew we weren't right. I just feel like we forced it after that."

He picked up the ring and laughed. "My homies told me not to wife your crazy ass. They knew you couldn't handle it. Said you was gon use a nigga to get your name up and be out. Shit guess they was right" he shrugged as if he didn't care.

He was poking his chest out, that was what little boys did. I couldn't help but to laugh too. Get my name up off of him? He barely had a name for himself right now.

"Okay Shad" I nod with a smile on my face.
"Call it what you want. Hop back on your baby mama's clit so she can take you off child support . Fix it with her,  get ya family right. Maybe she'll let up off them pockets. I'll see you around" I grab my purse and head to the front door.

"You ain't gon be shit without me. No mansions. No cars. Bitch you gon be back to basics. It's cool though" he yells as I keep walking.

"Nigga you rent this house. Stop lying on ya accounts. Hopefully CSI will get ya pockets right and you can actually buy this muthafucker.  And stop leasing your cars too little broke bitch."

Once my mouth went off it was hard to control it. But I came to him respectfully, and the little man started feeling himself way too much. I had to bring him back down to earth.

I'm so glad I was done with him. He showed me more times than not how low he could be. I was over it though. Happily free. I was ready to start fresh. Leaving Shad's sorry ass behind me. Seeing a much brighter future with the one person who always had faith in me. My Cyn.