cadence

i am

i am sticky fingers and wide grins, chunky crayons and messy faces.

i am eyes the size of saucers, constant wonder, exciting discoveries.

i am chaotic coloring pages, satisfied smiles and small clay men.

i am playing outside, sweltering heat and tank tops.

i am relaxing cool baths, bubbles up to my chin and crazy shampoo hairstyles.

i am first grade drama, falsely shed tears and declined play dates.

i'm memorized poems, bright productions, standing ovations.

i am hula-hooping until daybreak, hopscotch until dawn and jump-roping until the sun rises.

i am "wall ball", talent shows and spelling bees.

i am wondering thoughts, curious questions and groundbreaking discoveries.

i am books and books and books.

i am the "extra" friend, the "replacement".

i am more forced happiness, less real laughter.

i am broken mirrors and self-loathing.

i am a downwards spiral, a broken record.

i am false smiles and lies.

i am not okay.

i am small starts, replaced mirrors.

i am positive thinking and negative results.

i am earbuds and music, reading and stories.

i am five am thoughts, midnight conversations.

i am smiling for the first time in four days.

i am the climber on a mountain, a work in progress.

i am getting there.

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-olive ☆〜（ゝ。∂）