I Killed My Mother

Chapter 34

Thursday, 2015/02/17, 15:59
Hospital...California

Jacky's POV

The memories of that day still hurt me when I think about it. I still couldn't believe it happened to me. I still can't believe it happened to me.

I fell in love with a married man.

Hell, I'm still in love with a married man.

"And yet you still went back to him?" Kate asked me, breaking me from my thoughts.

"I'm really sorry. I was stupid," I paused to think about what I was about to say next. "But Kate, no matter how wrong it was of me, I will never regret what I got from our relationship. Which is something great to me to this day."

I heard her scoff in disbelief but I didn't bring it to attention, nor was I offended. I understood her anger. I understood her hurt. She wouldn't be able to understand what I meant about what I just told her about me getting the best thing out of the relationship I had with Dan. So I wouldn't make a fool of myself by explaining my self so I just finished my story.

It's been an awful three weeks after Daniel  and I spoke. He followed me back home that night. He called me and texted me a few times. Just today I have had him text me twice and call me three times and it's only three in the afternoon. He seems to be starting to give up now because there used to be way more attempts at winning me back.

Oddly, the less he tries, the worse I feel. I should be happy right? I did tell him to stay away from me after all.

My phone buzzed, indicating a text message.

Daniel: Please Jacky. I'm begging you. Allow me to explain. Please. I miss you.

My fingers hovered over the keyboard while I was contemplating on whether it's a good idea or not to meet him so we can talk. I quickly dismissed that thought as a stupid idea. I locked my phone and threw it on the other side of the bed.

My phone buzzed again with another text and I reached for it thinking it's Daniel again.

Melissa: Girl. How about you come over to my place and we have a get together. I want you to meet someone.

Jacky: Sorry Mel. Dan and I have plans tonight. Can't make it

Melissa: BRING HIM WITH.

Jacky: We were hoping for some alone time.

Melissa: Ohhhhhhhhhh. I see. Were the nice lingerie.

I know I know. But Melissa and the others don't know about what Daniel had told me. I have just been avoiding the topic with them. I can't tell them. It's shameful. And I know Melissa will throw me a pity party if she ever found out. It's childish of me, but I just can't tell people about it.

Jacky: Okay fine. Meet me at the restaurant a street from me at 18:00. It's called The Eat.

Daniel: Okay. I will be there. Thank you so much Jacky ♥♥

"Why didn't you just tell your friends?" Kate questioned.

I drew in a long breathe and sighed. "I don't know. I guess at the time I was too ashamed. I am still too ashamed. They still don't know anything."

"I can't believe this," she shook her head. I don't blame her for being disgusted in me. I'm disgusted in me too. "I'm trying not to judge because you had to do what you had to do right?"

"I guess. But now, my husband is in jail. For murder. How many years is that? 25?"

"I-I kind of accidentally slip to the cops about the other two," she said softly.