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Friendships: Reconnecting?

Okay, so I had this friend, right?(Oh my god, Suad had friends?) and we were pretty close. Now I mean, like, super super close. Like, I could literally say to her 'I'm on my period and my vagina feels like a knife is being stabbed into it' and she'd be like 'I feel your struggles'.

But recently(okay, actually it was about half a year ago, but whatever) we had a huge falling out. And I mean HUGE. It got to the point where I sat inside for majority of my summer break because I fucking hated the fact that someone who I used call my best friend not only hated me, but was showing no affect of us not being friends anymore.

She posted(not in an intentionally mean way) pictures of her and her other friends having fun all over Facebook and stuff and whenever I saw it, I would always get sad and stuff.

Fast forward a few months, and I'm starting to feel okay. I wasn't that sad anymore and I was starting to realize that her not being my friend was actually okay. That I could live with the fact we both moved on and that we probably weren't made to be friends with one another.

But just as I've practically moved on, she'll text me. And it'll be random and out of the blue. It'll also be about certain things we used to talk about when we were friends. We've texted maybe three or four times in the last.  And every time I would feel awkward or uncomfortable with how chill she was being.

The first time was kinda an 'ending' to our friendship. So our friendship didn't end on shit terms, I guess. It was quick, and awkward and I literally felt like I was gonna throw up because it was always so random.

The second and third time(one was on the release date of the JBH video) we texted always had something to do with 5SOS. We even exchanged musicians and talked about Fanfiction and stuff. It was weird, because the conversation was going on like we were still best friends. The things we talked about was stuff we talked about when we were best friends. And what threw me off the most about these conversations?

She would completely ignore my existence the next day. It was as if I was invisible(who am I? Who am I?) to her. There was one time I waved at her and she kept walking(or maybe my eyes made it look like she looked at me, I dunno)

I hate when people do this. It fucks with my brain and manipulates my trust. It ruins my views future relationships and I just hate it.

One of my friends said that she was only talking to me when it was convenient for her. And I guess I agree but my other friend said maybe she was just trying to reach out to me. But I dunno.

I was writing some of Based Off A Lie(which will be up very soon I promise), but I was getting distracted and I just need to get this off my chest.

What'd you guys think? Do you know people like this? And if she does this again, what should I do? Let me know. Well, that's all I have to say. So, goodbye for now.