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Exams

I :) Hate :) Exams :)

They suck.

I always fuck up on them. They're awful.

I have three exams this semester:
English
Foods & Culture
Biology

All these classes I'm doing pretty well in. But the reason my marks go down, or the reason my marks aren't what I'm happy about it always because of tests and exams. It's always because of them.

My friend says I have what she calls 'Exam and test anxiety' which basically means that I'm good with a course until and exam/test comes into play. Then I get nervous, my thoughts get jumbled and I don't do so great.

I have my English Exam today. In about three hours actually. My mark at midterm was 90% and then we ha a stupid test an my mark went down to an 86% and then we had a stupid assignment and my mark went down to an 83%, but when doing my English summative my mark went up to an 84%.

I need 6% to get back to my 90%. Which is probably only gonna happen if I get 90 or above on my exam. And that's most likely not gonna happen because, like I said before, I always fuck up on test and exams.

It's probably the worst thing that brings out my anxiety and I hate them so much. I'm praying my teacher is courteous and sees how hard I'm trying. I even went to her yesterday and she said that there wasn't much she can do to help me boost up my mark.

So I better pass this exam. If I don't, I will honestly be so upset. I'll probably cry. Especially because this is my grade 12 mark. This is the mark I'm submitting to universities, so it needs to be a good mark.

Anyway, if you have exams, or finals good luck! Hopefully you'll pass, and if you don't, who cares? Maybe school just isn't for you. But studying hard, and try not to freak out.

Okay, well I'm gonna go and try to not freak out. Okay? Bye.

Oh! and if you're stressed about exams and need someone to chat with, just PM me. I'll be here. Except between the hours of 9-11 AM, because that's when my exam is.