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Friendships ~ Missing Old Friends

Have you guys ever had a friend who you were like best friends with? Like you talked everyday, liked the same stuff, would always get told to shut up in class by the teacher. Has that friend ever just stopped liking you or have you two just fallen out before? 

That's happened to me, and I just wanna know, have your feelings for them ever change?

Like, would you go one day with being completely and utterly okay that they're out of your life and that you don't have to talk to them anymore? Or that you didn't have to deal with all the useless fighting bullshit and all the drama with them? 

And then the next day you missed them? Like, you missed laughing with them, and fangirling with them and just having deep talks with them? Did you miss having that one friend who you could literally go to when you're sad or depressed or feeling like your whole world is crashing down, but you know you can't talk to them because you're not friends anymore? 

Because I feel like that sometimes, and there have been days where my fingers have literally hovered over their Facebook contact name and I wanted to text them or say "hi" but I'm always afraid that they'll just read and ignore or show their other friends who hate me and laugh or something like that. 

I dunno why I wrote this. It's just been bugging me and I needed to get this off my chest. I wanna talk to her, but every time it's over text it just gets worse, and if I did it in person I feel like I'd have a panic attack. So I guess this is the only way to get this out of my system. Thanks for reading if you did. 

Also, if you care, I think my update schedule might come back. I also posted a new muke story called "Broken Beauty" to see if I was ready to come off hiatus. And I think I am. I also have a bunch of stories planned and ready to be written, so when I figure out my schedule I'll let you know.

Thanks for listening to me mope, again. 

xx Suad