The 5 And Only

Chapter 1

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Disclaimer: I wrote this in 2013 and it is a work that I've debated keeping up. It's quite embarassing and at times rather dark, but it was a part of my childhood as the first long work I created and no matter how intense or cheesy it is, I'm proud of it and will always look back at it cringing but also smiling. So, please forgive my spelling and grammar errors and know that writing this was a learning experience and I've only grown since! Thank you for still reading!! Enjoy
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A/N: Heyyy guyys this is my first fan fic so go easy on me please c: comments are encouraged just no H8 unless it's constructive criticism thanks c:
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Today has NOT been a good day. That's put as simply as possible. I'm at school and out of the blue I feel really hot and shaky and like I'm just going to burst out into tears. To be honest I thought I was having panick attacks until I Googled the symptoms of a panic attack and nope they aren't the same. When I get these it's always in school, but they don't come that often. Like I said before I get really hot, super shaky, and feel like I'm about to burst out into tears which has happened, but I also feel the need to self-harm, and I become really mad at people if they try to talk to me. I have no clue why though I just snap. By the end of the school day my hand is fuming red with a burning touch because I scratch it up with a pencil to defeat the urge to cut. I learned to stop bringing my blades to school after the first incident with these "insanity outbreaks" that's my new name for them because I have no clue what they really are.

I really hope it goes away by the end of the day because Liam and the guys are comming home on a little vacation. Yes Liam as in Liam Payne from One Direction. Liam and my brother, Mike, have been friends forever then I was introduced to the other 4 goobers after the XFactor. When I'm with them I forget about everything. All the bullying, the cutting, the suicidal thoughts...everything. When I'm with them the world is just in that moment and nothing else. They're the best thing that has ever happened to me. Haha it sounds like I'm dating them, but nope they're my brothers. To be honest I did have a little crush on Zayn when I was 12 haha I'm over it though they're just all my brothers. It's been so long since I've seen them so I can't let this get to me and ruin the day.

"Hey...HEY..HELLOOOOOOO. Morgan?" My best friend Brooke was waving her hand in front of my face snapping me out of my intense thoughts. "Huuu?" I looked up to her. "Come on we'll walk to class together lunch is over." Brooke pulled me up and I started walking with her. Wait how did I get to lunch I thought I was still in science class? How the heck did that happen? I've never completley forgotten leaving a class? Plus how could I zone out the complete lunch time? "Morgan what's up with you today? Aren't you ecxited about later on? We get to skip a whole class to leave to go see the guys at home!" Brooke stated shaking my arm with a dorky smile on her face. I laughed,"Yeah sorry I'm just kinda out of it today I geuss, but I promise I'll be all good by the time Mike is here to pick us up." The bell rang "Okay just live through 10 more minutes then we should be getting called to the office for pick up. See ya later babeeee" "Sure thang love" I replied before heading in the opposite direction for class so I was going one direction *wink wink* while Brooke was going the other direction. Alright good I'm better, I'm making jokes only Brooke, Gavin, and I would truly laugh at.

Gavin is my gay best friend like literally he's gay do you know how fun it is shopping with a gay guy? It's legit the best thing ever! I swear. He's just like Patrick from The Perks of Being a Wallflower! No joke he acts, sounds, and even looks exacally like him!! Well not the exact same look but you would think they were brothers, not twins exacally just brothers. Gosh I don't know what I would do without that boy! "Morgan. Someone's in the office to pick you up." My french teacher informed me. "Ok thanks." I gathered my things awkwardly while smiling like and idiot as I rushed out of the classroom.

I heard Brooke and Gavin laughing at thier lockers across the hall. I quickly glided to my locker. I spun the lock to my combination and eagarly opened it. Just as I flung it open neon sticky notes and wads of paper flew out. I looked at the inside and saw about fifty sticky notes plastered to the locker walls. I now felt Brooke and Gavin's eyes on me. I gathered the notes and paper all into one big wad then rushed into the bathroom and threw them away with tears in my eyes, but I didn't make eye-contact with either of my friends. I took a few seconds in the lady's room to dry my eyes and gather myself. I glanced out of the restroom and saw Brooke holding up a paper and reading it to Gavin. With the light on the paper I saw through it and made out the words "Go kill yourself bitch" then that jogged my memory of all the other notes I saw while picking them up. Stuff like "whore" "fat" "ugly" "worthless" were on some then I saw a few "Go kill yourself"s. I darted out of the bathroom and yanked the paper from Brooke's hand and stuffed it in my pockets. "Lets go!" I smiled. By the looks on thier faces they were trying to see if I would be alright, they looked worried, like they felt sorry for me. "Come on I wanna see the guys!" I pulled them foward then I flew to my locker to get my bag and close it then I linked arms with Gavin and he linked arms with Brooke and we skipped down the halls. Luckily no teachers saw us. We were all smiling and laughing, but I knew Brooke was going to make sure I was all right and she would talk to me about it later. I didn't care though I was about to see the 5 guys that changes me life and practically saved me.