BitterSweet Love (A Justin Bieber Fan Fiction)

Five: Exposure

Chapter 5 (Sorry it's so late, been having a bit of a writers block, but I promise new chapters every Friday, yay!)

These days I haven't really been sleeping much, just laying in bed overthinking anything and everything. I couldn't get the scene out of my head it was a horrendous flashback that couldn't be put to rest no matter how hard I tried. I didn't go out much either seeing as Justin and Ryan would run off everyday without me because they didn't want anything to do with me. So, I sat here. Couped up in my room, yes mine because Justin transfered to Ryan's to avoid me. All I had were a few works of literature and Justin's guitar, which I used all the time since he was out so much. I constantly begged for fogiveness, but it was useless because he would not even look at me and Ryan wouldn't look at me either. Once a monster, always a monster I guess.

"I just wish she'd give it a break. It's not like I'm gonna forgive her anytime soon, or ever..." Justin's voice echoed through the halls

"You know it's strange knowing that I've known and loved this girl my entire life and she turned out to be a heartless. Just goes to show that absolutely no one is trustable these days." Ryan, my Ryan I mean I knew he wasn't my biggest fan at the moment, but still.

"She's absolutely mental man I hated her from the start can't trust someone who looks like a rat." Wow, well then Justin.

"After this vacation is over I'm dropping her from my life au revoir, auf wiedersehen, good bye. Can't wait." Ryan laughed

This was all just so much to sink in. The world hates me, my mom hates me, Justin most definetly hates me, and now the best friend I ever had loathes me. I felt so alone. So completely deserted. No one wanted to speak to me. Everywhere I went everywhere I looked there I was back at that day, no help that TMZ created the #1 twitter worldwide hashtag #ThatBitchNamedScarlett. My life was the result of an atomic bomb, and there was no escaping it. So, I went to the shiny piece of metal luster that would take away all the pain even if it were only for moments. And that's how I ended up here with a completely slashed and dangerously bloody arm. and a wide eyed Justin Bieber snatching the blade from my fingertips.

"Holy fucking shit Scarlett you're bleeding everywhere!" Justin exclaimed

"Look if you're here to criticise me some more I honestly don't need it right now. I don't think I'll be able to handle anymore" I said my voice cracking from all the tears.

"Scarlett I..." He said at a loss for words shaking his head.

"Justin, everyone in the world hates me for what I said to you. All my friends cut me off completely and you and Ryan pretend like I don't even exist. Everyday I get so much hate online saying how I'm fat, ugly, and don't deserve to be alive and I'm starting to think that this is all true. My own mother won't speak to me because she's so ashamed to have me for a daughter. Ryan, who's been my best friend since birth is absolutely disgusted of me. And you know what I don't have anyone to blame but myself. Everything you said about me is true I am a pathetic lowlife and a complete bitch. I have nothing to pin on you, but you don't even understand what it feels like to be surrounded by so many people but feel so completely alone. And you, just seeing your face everyday hurts me so much because I hurt you so badly and I can never take that back. I made you cry and wished death upon you and I can never take that back. And I will never forgive myself." I said crying my heart out.

"Oh, Scarlett. I never thought it would turn out like this" He said softly holding me

"I am so sorry Justin, so incredibly sorry for everything. I am crying out for forgiveness." I pleaded

"Hush it's ok everything's gonna be alright." He cooed wiping my tears.

"Do you promise?" I asked between breaths since I had been crying so much.