chosen // 5sos vampire

chapter 18

I decided to sit with Logan until he woke to make sure everything was okay.

I thought back to Luke and I's awkward embrace. Why did he do that? It seemed that whenever I was nice to Logan, his humanity stood out.

Maybe it was a sign of some vampire-mate jealousy? I laughed. Luke had made it clear that the side he was showing was the real Luke.

The only plan I managed to make up was to remain on good terms with Luke. I would have to play the first move if I wanted my mate back. It sucked having to feel so much pain since he never wanted to be around me.

At this point, Logan began to stir. I reached my cold hand out to steady him and his brown eyes shot open.

"You're okay, Logan," I whispered, "Luke is gone. I hope that I was gentle enough? The healing really seemed to amaze you; I wouldn't lie to you, I planned on healing you the quick way."

Logan carefully sat up, with my hand guiding the small of his back, "I'll be fine. I just didn't expect for it to heal so fast. I just feel kind of weak."

I sat up from the couch, "Let's get you something to eat. I hope you have realized that this whole feeding thing will surely happen again very soon."

I quickly prepared some waffles (because who doesn't enjoy waffles) and handed them off to Logan, who ate them within a few minutes.

The smell only made my head hurt more. I apologized to Logan and told him he was free to wander around his 'bedroom' but had to remain in that area.

He nodded as he walked to his room and I headed for the stairs. It was time to deal with Luke.

"Luke, I need you!" I yelled as it echoed through the empty house. I heard a deep sigh coming from upstairs as it murmured to me to come on up.

I took the stairs two at a time and waited outside of his office door. I didn't want to intrude.

"Come in, Lillian. What is it that you need?" Luke looked at me. I took notice of a frail Grace sleeping in the corner next to Luke's desk. I sighed.

"I just need to understand- Why don't you show me any affection of love anymore? That movie night was one of the best moments of my time here. You may not need me but that doesn't mean I don't need you."

Luke just stared, "I made that mistake centuries ago and wish not to return to the land of love," he scowled, "The first few days of our bond were to keep you happy before the transformation and directly after so that you would not go on a killing rampage. I could read you like a book, you clearly felt something for me. I am deeply sorry for becoming so aggressive, but I hate to admit that I am no longer capable of love. It was an act to keep you happy, I am not that cruel."

Tears formed in my eyes, "Why the sudden change, couldn't you still be pretending? It hurt me so much for you to turn your back on me, physically and mentally. Why did you even ever save me? You could have merely killed me."

Luke slowly shook his head, "You are special, Lillian Grey. I had not yet turned my humanity off when I had first found you. I was a full fledged love struck pureblood that had not have felt that much love if it wasn't for you. I was not an emotionless killer, even today I have not been able to turn everything off. You make me feel something, even though I do not want to. I believe if I would have killed you, I would have also killed myself."

I gasped. Taking Luke's face with my hands, I leaned in and kissed the cold hearted vampire.

What I didn't expect was for Luke to throw me clear across the large room with so much force that it felt like my frozen heart had broken into even smaller pieces.

Luke touched his lips and looked at me, "Did you not listen to anything I just said?" He roared, "Get out of my sight before I change my mind and kill you!"