Big Bang's Bodyguard (Completed)

Chapter 28

I almost didn't recognize what I look as I stare at my reflection. Blank brown eyes with heavy bags showing how I didn't sleep right last night and dull hair tied away from my face. Standing inside this cramp bathroom, I push the strands away from my face and sigh. For the past five hours, I've been traveling with the boys nonstop. No breaks, no side trip or sight viewing. Ever since I receive that message everything has going southwards.

"Its time to go back, Sir." GD's surprise was written all over his face when I utter those words. Still clutching the phone in my hand, I keep my gaze forward as I walk pass him.

"Xin!" He called out to me, following me as I make my way back to the house. There was no time in being weak again. No time to feel sad. No time to pick the pieces of my heart. Putting my job first before my heart is what important now. As I push the door open, I saw the four men sitting inside their room turn their attention to me.

"Noona!"

"Xin!"

"Hey..."

"Everything okay?" They asked me but I remain silent and went to their luggage. Dragging one by one until it was on their feet.

"What happen Ji Yong?" I heard Taeyang asked. I don't need to see him when I could feel his presence closer than I want.

"President was rushed in the hospital. We need to go back to the mainland as soon as possible. I need you to pack your luggages within an hour." I said without bothering to look at him or them as I tug my phone out and see that we could still grab the last trip to the next port.

"What?!"

"Sh%t..."

"Oh my god..."

"Xin, are you okay?" I heard TOP ask me, his hand on my shoulder stopping me from moving away from them. My head turn to him, showing him my polite smile and controlling the shaky knees I have.

"I'm fine, sir. Now if you excuse me, I have some phone calls to attend." Gently pushing his hand away, I moved to my room and before I close it, I heard TOP and Daesung.

"Sir? What the hell?"

"Ji Yong Hyung... What happen?" Not wanting to hear anything else, I close the door and finally let my knees gave in. Slumping down, my breathing uneven as I clutch tightly on my chest. The anguish was painful as another batch of tears rolled down my face. To love someone is pleasure and painful. Seeing his smiles lighten your day. His laughter sounds soft bells in your ears. His caress are whispers of silk on your skin. Gentle kisses that make your heart flutter. Things you would treasure all your life. But he can also bring you to your knees. Break your will. Crush your heart. And you would let him do it because you love him that much. He is your world. Your everything. I sound pathetic. I feel ashamed of my state. Covering my mouth to hide my sobs as tears keep on rolling down, shaking in each breath I take. Just this minute, let me cry everything out until I can.

I close my eyes, pushing those images in this box inside my head. Locking it with thick chains and padlock, tossing the key somewhere else. I had to be on my guard since I'm bringing them back to the place where everything has started. With one wary glance at myself, I tug the lapel of my suit and step out of the bathroom. Yes, you heard me right. Suit. The clothes I wore on the job. No more skinny jeans. No more sling bags full of essentials for an idol to carry around. No more rubber shoes. Hello to plain white long sleeves polo underneath the navy suit. Aviators inside its front pocket and crisp slacks with black ankle boots on feet. My gun hidden on my back with a spare tucked on my right ankle. I don't plan to hide anymore. If this person wants to play, he has to come closer to me cause I'm gonna strangle him with my bare hands. Sighing, I made my way back to one of the private rooms inside the ferry. We were lucky enough to catch the boats heading to the other ports at this late hour. Had to dig on my own stash just to keep this trip hush-hush. This was the last league of the travel before stepping on the soil again. Quietly pushing the door enough to peek in, I saw them in different states. Seungri was sleeping on Taeyang's shoulder as the latter was looking out of the dark window. Daesung was biting his nails, knees jiggling as he fumble with the zipper of his jacket. TOP was flipping the magazine he was holding but I could see he wasn't looking at it really because he keep on glancing at GD. And GD... My grip on the door tighten as I stare at him from the shadows. He was sitting by himself, a big space between him and the rest as he stare at a space. They were lost in their own thoughts. Worried at YG and trying to understand what happen between me and GD when none of us are talking. I close the door without a sound and grab a chair from the side, sitting outside and twisting my neck to ease off the tension. I was watching over them. That sound creepy but this was how I can work. To keep my head on the track and my heart to not give in the pain again. I had to focus. Should have done my job from the very start.