I don't know what to do
I don't know what to say
my friends have come back
they don't come during the day
they must have sensed it
my depression and tears
it's hard when one person
confirms all of your fears
I thought I could be happy
I thought I would be cool
but it turns out I was wrong
and now I feel like a fool
I shouldn't have trusted you
I shouldn't have cared
but your smile was so loving
all of myself was scared
but the fear wasn't enough
to stop me from falling
and now my friends are here
and I can't stop them from calling
they're so loud and rude
I can't ignore them
they're already in my head
and my vision goes dim
when I wake up from that trance
I am ashamed of what I have done
I shouldn't have stayed with you
I should've turned and run
but now I am on the ground
gasping for air
because my friends are yelling
(and because they really aren't there)
close your eyes
concentrate
make them quiet
you're doing great
and then it stopped
no more concentrate
just more pills
each with a refill date
these will make them quiet
these will ease the pain
these can make you sleepy
am I doing it all in vain?
because my friends are back
and I don't know why
I need to stop thinking
and wanting to die
I need to be social
people shut them up
music does too
but I don't have much luck
I wish I could stop dreaming
stop wishing for peace
because it won't happen
my mind isn't at ease
I guess I had hoped
that I wouldn't fall
but I was lying to myself
and now that is all
I'm sorry my friend
if I am not nice
it's not me I swear
but here's some advice
don't believe the mean things
don't consider my glares
it's not really me
my mind isn't there
I have to go now
I'm sorry, I am
but my friends cloud my thoughts
I don't know where I stand
