No one understands.
"It's just for attention"
They just can't see
What I'm doing is for restriction
I don't want them to see
The way I am inside
It would kill me
So I will just hide
I don't want to be judged
I don't want to be me
The only thing I want
Is to be set free
Free from this world
And all of its horrors
Not wanting to open
Those tightly shut doors
So why don't I leave
Why do I stay?
Because maybe, just maybe
There'll be a better day.
But for now
I'll be in my room
Curled up in a corner
Awaiting my doom
Wondering when
I will cut deep
I can't feel the pain
But the scars I will keep
No one can know
I want them to be fooled
To believe my fake smiles
I always have at school
So that one day will come
When I'm no longer here
I hope you had fun
Teasing me with your peers.
I say goodbye to my loved ones
I say goodbye to my friends
I loved them so much
I loved till the end.
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Just republishing my poems because I'm past all of this now. sorry if any of them are triggering.
