Re-Adopted by Black Veil Brides

A Deep Conversation

~Audrey's POV~ 5 days later 

I run up the stairs after slamming Ash's car door. I slam my own door and one of the dogs starts scratching at it, which irritates me more. Plummeting to my bed, I take my pillow and push it to my face. I scream. Wondering what's wrong with me? I just had my first bad day of high school. 

For one, I forgot to do my math homework and my teacher assigned yet another pile of it! She's scary and strict and she stresses me out! And then, in PE they made all of us dress out. Now I knew this was coming and I wasn't ready AT ALL. I still have scars from a long time ago and they never went away. I'm terrified of changing infront of people. Especially if they're gonna be judgmental. And last but not least, Jared wasn't there today. I walked the halls with Evan. But Jared makes me feel calm. He's someone who I'm familiar with. Not having him there today was the worst.

Ashley asked if I was okay and I didn't say anything. How could I tell him all this stuff when I said I was going to be fine? He'll feel so ashamed or disappointed! What kind of person am I? He's been really focused with his music for the new album and I can't bring myself to distract him and upset him. And how could I even tell him about PE? 

I hear footsteps coming up the stairs. 

"Audrey? Um, don't forget that everyone is coming over for dinner tonight. Just make sure you get all your homework done before they get here. You know how crazy it gets when CC's here." He chuckles. 

"Yea sure whatever...." And he closes the door. Why was I so rude? Why am I taking it out on Ash? It's definitely not his fault! 

And I am so stupid! How could I forget that dinner party? Ashley told me like last week. With all the homework and sleepless nights because of homework... Did I really get this lost within just a few days? I need to pull myself together before anyone gets here! I don't want to seem like a failure. 

I push through the the horrrid math. And then I remember that English paper I was supposed to do. That Spanish paper is still sitting on my desk half filled out. Shit that was due yesterday! After I get done with my homework I let the dogs in. I leave the door open hoping to let the stress out and calm myself down. I play with my guitar and Tokyo seems to really like what I play. Killer likes to just sit infront of my mirror and look at himself. The door bell rings and the dogs scurry down the stairs. I wonder how they do that. I can't go that fast unless I want to fall and break my head open. 

Voices fill the house and it carries up the stairs. I hear Jakes, Jinxx's, and Alice's voices. The click of the heels down the floor and into the kitchen. After awhile Andy comes and soon everybody is here. Good thing it's Friday night. Like Ash said, it's gets hella crazy with CC . But I'm assuming he was way crazier before I came along. Jakes told me about the crazy tour bus stories ;) 

Alice comes up to see me. Her perfume smells like roses and rain. I look up from my guitar and smile. 

"Hey Alice!" 

"Hey Audrey! How you doing?"

"I'm umm...I'm alright!" 

"You good?" She asks pointing at my guitar. 

"Kinda? Haha I'm nothing like Jake and Jinxx!"

"Listen, Ashley told me about today. He's worried about you. Wanna talk about it?" She sits down on my bed.

I sigh. 

"Well, it just hasn't been a good day. I forgot to do homework that was due today. That teacher hates me with a passion just because I was late to class. PE was terrible and i wasn't prepared for it at all."

"Wasn't prepared for what? Did they make you run a mile? Did the coach yell at you?"

"No it's not that. It's that we had to um...change...infront of each other and...my um..."

"You scars." I look at her surprised. She knew? "Jinxx told me. We talk about deep stuff once in a while and you come up a lot." 

"Oh... Well then." 

"I get it Audrey. You're scared of the girls looking at you. I was scared too. When I was little I ran into a glass sliding door in the dark and I cut myself all over.  Most of the wounds went away but many were still visible. Those girls in school teased me and called me a cutter and they constantly asked if I wanted to see a doctor or pop some pills. In truth, they made me depressed because they didn't understand. And it got to the point where I skipped school. They made me ashamed of my body. But over time, a long time at that, I just chose to not listen to them." 

"So I shouldn't listen to them?" 

"If they say something yes. Some of those girls just don't understand and might never understand about your situation. Don't let anything that anyone says get to you. And those scars are reminders of what you went through. They're apart of you and your past. Just don't be ashamed." 

My eyes are blurring slightly with tears. I suddenly understand what Jinxx sees in Alice. 

"Thanks Alice." I smile while still crying. 

"You're welcome honey." She says hugging me. 

She takes out her hand and leads me outside and down the stairs. Clinking of glasses and music playing. Something's cooking and it smells so freaking good! That's probably Jinxx cooking. 

"Hey Audreeeyy!" CC says trapping me in a hug. 

"Hey CC!" I giggle. 

I sit on the counter next to the cooking food. Andy slides me over a coke.

"You doing alright for your first week of high school?" He asks.

"I guess yea.. Teachers are stressing me out but I've got some good friends." 

"That's great! How's Jared?" 

"He's good. But um he wasn't at school today. Not sure what he's up to." Wanting to change the subject i say. "Who's cooking?" 

"Juliet. She told me to watch the stove while she's looking for something in the car." 

She then walks in, her black heels clicking along the tile. She smiles and hugs me. We met a while back and she's so great! She takes me shopping with Alice every now and then. She asks if I want to help her cook and I say yes. I've always wanted to learn to cook. She stirs the pasta on the stove and adds sauce. She tells me to cut the mushrooms on the counter and I do so. Soon enough dinner is done and the table is set. We eat and talk and laugh. Just having a good time. I feel my phone in my pocket vibrate constantly. I know who it is but I don't want to bother with him just yet.