Before the night falls [n.h]

Chapter 15

Chapter 15

The other One Direction members. The other ones who are also in the Album with Niall. Harry, Zayn, Louis and Liam. I knew them, but they surely didn't know me. So, this is somehow very awkward to stand in front of them with Niall. After I looked at all of the boys still standing in the hall, I turned my gaze to Niall. I was expecting him to do something. Anything to not turn this even more awkward than it is and he did that.

"Hi lads." Niall casually said. "Hi," all of the for said in unison. I could feel the four boys' gaze still on me. "Hi," That was the shyest 'hi' I ever said in my life so far.

"Ehm, guys this is Jessica and Jessica I think you already know their names, right," Niall winked while looking at me. "Yeah, I do." This time I looked at the boys. This time it wasn't that weird. They smiled and seemed more relaxed. "Well, I guess me and the boys should leave now, see you later Niall," Liam said. Niall looked at me with a questioning face. "I don't mind if they stay." I whispered to Niall. "Hey lads, if you want you can stay. No need to leave," Niall looked at the boys.

They turned around to face me and Niall, "We don't want to disturb your date," Louis said. I softly chocked a bit with some pasta I've put in my mouth. "Yeah, we clearly interrupted you both and that's not what we want," Liam excused himself. "Louis, we're not on a date, I mean we're just friends," Niall quickly looked at me then at Louis again. I added, "and you guys didn't interrupt, we weren't doing nothing special. You actually could join us. I really don't mind." Niall softly smiles with his lips closed, "Yeah, just as Jess said." Harry grinned, "Well in that case, I guess we'll sit down and get to know each other better right?" Harry walked towards us and sat down while the others did the same also.

So far so good. "So, from where are you?" Harry asks. "I'm from America, Ohio." As the boys got to know me better I also got to know a few things from each of the boys. Niall was weird. I looked at him and he wasn't as happy as he was before. He didn't say a word. I really don't know why. He was probably bored. Anyway, I really enjoyed chatting with the other boys. After three hours spent with the five boys, Liam, Louis, Zayn and Harry left. They said they needed to go somewhere. I didn't really understand where. Band stuff perhaps. The clock showed 17:15 p.m.

I'm left with Niall again. Not complaining. I like to be only with Niall, but the other guys are also nice. "So...?" Niall began. "So...what?" I waited. "So, don't you want to go home?", Niall questioned. I really didn't expect that from Niall. I should've known it earlier. Boys, all the same. "Wow, if you want me to leave just say it. Don't do indirects with me Niall," I turned around while passing through the hall, making my way too the front door.

"WAIT. I didn't mean it that way. I thought you were getting bored with me as the others lads left. If you aren't you can stay if you want, I like your company," Niall said. I turned around, "Me, bored with you? We're friends Niall. I like being with you. Why would you think of something like that?" His blue eyes were glowing more than usual. Intense. Niall was looking at me straight in my eyes, "It looked like the other lads were more interesting for you. You didn't talk much to me and I don't want to be a bother, so I figured out you want to leave, but as I see it's not like that."

Where the heck did he come with that idea? I only said, "Niall, I'm not going to lie. The other guys  were really nice and everything, but I came here to be with you not with them. I only got to know them better and that's it. Remember that and Niall that's really not the case. You're definitely not a bother." Niall grinned, "Oh well, good to know that. So, you actually do like me I see." I laughed, "Niall we're friends why shouldn't I?" I winked.

A couple of seconds later I realized what I did. Oh god, why did I wink? I so regret doing that. I hope he doesn't notice I like him because I do like him more than I should. Gosh I need to chill. I only winked and I'm already overreacting. Anyway, I'm still afraid that he might think that I was flirting with him. Well the mistake is already done and I can't rewind time.

"Yeah, why shouldn't you like me? Not that I'm bragging, but I'm a really kind funny person, right?" Niall did his cute little laugh and then winked at me. Why do I do this to myself. He's so hot and me being the stupid person I am, I only do things worse.

"Hey, hold on. I do like you, but it's not like I admire you and I'm not going to lie, you are a really nice person," I laughed. Niall put his right arm on my shoulders, "I'm glad that you admitted that, but I'm still sad." I made a confused look, "Why sad?" "You didn't say I'm funny," Niall looked at me with a really adorable cute puppy face.

I laughed again, "That's because you're not." Niall faked being sad, "Oh, so then I'm not a good company." I smiled, "I didn't say that, but you never made me laugh as far as I can remember." Niall put his left arm also on my shoulder so that we're in front of each other. Our lips were only inches apart. The willingness to kiss him was so strong, but I know I shouldn't think of that.

Niall then stopped laughing and looked at me, "That doesn't mean, you're not having a good time with me. Does it?" I slightly smiled, "No. Not at all." He softly grinned, "Good." He then leaned forward. He wanted to kiss me, but I gave a step back and put my hands on his shoulders so he wouldn't be able to move even more closer. It took me a long time to fully realize what was happening. I mean we already kissed, but now seeing him wanting it too made me so happy on the inside. Unfortunately, nothing will happen between us.

I then softly took his arms off of my shoulders, "Well, I need to go now. Call me if you want to hang out with me again. See you soon, hopefully." I winked and waved at him, moving myself to the front door. Niall only said, "Yeah, see you soon."

I really felt odd, but I was still glad. With all the willingness to kiss him, I didn't do it. I only hope that he isn't kind of upset. I mean, I acted like nothing happened, but he did try to kiss me and I didn't say nothing I only stepped back and we both knew what was going on.

If he knows I have feelings for him? No, I don't think so.

Anyway, it was now 17:45 p.m. It was time to go home now. Heather and Cara have already waited enough time and now I can't avoid this anymore. I knew this would come sooner or later and to be honest I felt ready to tell them the truth. Not everything on detail, only if they ask for it. They are my best friends and we never hid things from each other and why would that change now?

I got home and shouted, "Hello girls. I'm already home." I waited to hear an answer, but I could only hear my own breathing. Nobody home. Well, I guess this conversation will have to wait for later.

I don't know where they went, but the only thing I could do was relax and think of how I was going to explain this past 8 days to them. I didn't think too much about this. I just need to explain all this past days and that's it. They might judge me and warn me, but how much worse can it get? It's not like that I'm going to jail because of this.

I had luck meeting Niall just as everyone else, but as in the conditions I am now I would say I was unlucky. Really though, why did I fall in love with him? I wish I could block my feelings just like when you close your eyes when you don't want to see something, but that is impossible. No one can. You can't control your feelings and that's what destroys me.

I switched the TV on. Nothing really interesting was on, so instead of watch, I put on MTV to listen to a bit of music. I love to listen to music while cleaning, but the music can't be loud as we live in an apartment with other people. Sigh, anyway I started to tidy up a bit. The house was in a big mess.

Mid while when I was tiding up, I heard a door slam. Cara and Heather had arrived. This was it. I stopped cleaning and went downstairs. I saw the two of them in the living room. Lets do this.