Muse Of A Broken Heart

Affliction

"affliction"
noun: the sate of being in constant pain.

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I like the pain because I think I deserve it,
All this pleasure and happiness, I'm not really worth it,
You think you know me? You want to help me out?
You gotta wait and wait until you realise,
Once I'm in, there is no out.
I've been ensnared in these fogs for as long as I can remember,
Tear stains and long nights have been my companions since forever.
So if you think you can waltz into my life and bring in a rainbow,
I apologise, but you're wrong.
You want to blame my attitude? It's not really my fault.
I need to be saved from myself too.
It's all in my head, you say? I know that better than you.
And that's the problem, there's no way to get it out.
So go ahead and do what everyone does best,
Abandon me and walk out of this mess.
Don't you feel guilty about a thing you do,
The pain of losing people dies,
Perhaps, one day I'll lose myself too,
Among these dark, sleepless nights and unheard cries.

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this is probably my favorite one cause this is what i've been trying to say in the last fourteen chapters but i also feel i could've done a better job. tell me what you think.

comment, vote and constructively criticise. :)