(A/N) First of all, thank you guys for 700 reads! I can't even describe how shocked and surprised I am. Thank you all, this means a lot!
Also sorry for the long wait!
They/ Them
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I've found my Fallen Angel just one week ago. I saw her wings hiding under all the fake smiles and laughs. She claims that I am her guardian angel protecting her from all the bad stuff in this cruel world. I find it really hard to believe that. I need saving myself. She said that we'd go through this walking nightmare together, and she kept reminding me that I'm perfect in my own way. I started to believe these words. Screw the therapists! All I needed was her. She's my answer to everything, she saw me and saw my wings too.
I couldn't thank her enough for all the things she has done for me. I absolutely love her for that, but it's not that easy. You can't just stop being sad when you feel like it, if I could, I would've done it already. The sadness follows me everywhere and there is nothing I can do about it. It's like my best friend that likes to abuse me in different ways. She loves the same things I do, and she goes through the same things I do. So then, why are you trying to fix me? You know how hard it is, why bother trying? I don't understand, you say that I need a savior but look at yourself dear. It's obvious you need it more than I do. No offence in anyway possible, you just look lost. Are you trying to find yourself? In that case I'll help but I already know who I am:
A depressed freak with suicidal thoughts that follow them wherever they go.
My dear, I love you with all my heart, keep that in mind. I would never hate you, I can't imagine me mad at you at all. It's just that I don't want to do this anymore. I want to leave this cruel and filthy world, don't you see? People try then they give up. What makes you think that you can fix this? It's impossible!
You keep saying "I love you" and "stay strong, we'll do this together." But you know it's not that simple. It won't lift this horrid curse that's been cast on me. I want you to be the first person I say goodbye to. I will, believe me.
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(A/N) I'm so sorry! I've had major writers block. I know that's not a proper excuse but truth is, I don't have one.
THANK YOU FOR 700+ VIEWS OMY. Could we get this story to 845? I don't know, but thank you!!
Bye,
Roniya xx
