Shit. Shit. Shit. Shit. Shit. How could i do that no.no.no.no.no.
I get up as fast as i can and grab my things. I run out not saying a word. Knowing he's rihgt behind me and i can hear him yelling, i go faster. I see my mothers car and when i pull the door open i throw my things in and tell her to step on it. For the first time she actually listened and we got home i five minutes (usually it would take ten minutes). I grab my things fron the back seat and run in side. When i get to my room i let my self fall to ground. For so much running i have been doing for the past two months i am really out of shape. I fell my phone buzz andi ignore it, it then rings and i ignore it again. After about twenty minutes i let it go and try to focus on anything else. Doing so i fall asleep again even though I didn't really want to.
When i wake up in the morning i touch my lip and it's still swollen and i know it was real. Who else would i kiss? Well actually don't answer that. I get dressed in as much black as possible. Maybe f i dress like someone died, people will leave me alone. I look at my neck in the mirror and see the small green bruises. Damn it go away already. I look around my room and fix what i didn't last night. For some reason my family left every thing like it was when i went to the hospital. Ever time i touched something i hear the belt buckle. Fuck man. I pull my now annoyingly curl hair in a very messy bun and grab my earbuds and and back pack. I grab my phone from my charger and walk down stairs.
Anthony- "Who died? Actually nevermind, i know, your soul right?"
I smile. Aww he remembered. In fifth grade his stupid friends where tessing me about how i wore to much black. Like a smart child one of his lame friends, Jack asked who died, and with the straights face ever i looked inchis eyes and said: "My soul." Lets just say they never tessed me again.
Me- " Ah brother you know me to well. I'll see you later i'm going to walk."
Anthony- " Ok cool p. I love you Madi. Remember that."
I hug him and walk out. I know the coma thing individual sucked but my brother and i arenoe closer so it does have some positives. I put my earbuds and the freaking best and worst song comes on.
I can hear your laugh
It's ringing through the hallways
I can see your smile
It's what gets me through my hard days
And your words was suppose to get me through my heartache, before my heartbreak
There's an emptiness that only few ever fill
And I somehow missed the meaning of love that is real
And it compliments my scars that will never heal
Maybe I didn't deserve you
Maybe I just couldn't cure you
They told me that I didn't hurt you
Why do I feel like I turned you?
Maybe I don't understand it
Tell me is this how you planned it?
Did you see us so stranded
Maybe I'm too much to manage
And if you weren't gonna guide me
Why bring me into the light?
Must have done something to make you want to run and hide
Why oh why didn't you just live your life?
And every girl needs a mother
And damn it I needed you
Instead you duck for cover
And you ran from the truth
And like kids do
You waited around for proof
Maybe I didn't deserve you
Maybe I just couldn't cure you
They told me that I didn't hurt you
Why do I feel like I turned you?
Maybe I don't understand it
Tell me is this how you planned it?
Did you see us so stranded
Maybe I'm too much to manage
Maybe I didn't deserve you...
I feel a tear and play it again. I sing along quietly. Before i know it i break down again. This time with no one around i let it out. Everything, everthing. All of the pain I've been hiding. The anger. The saddness. The confusion. Everything. Why? Why did this happen to me? What did i do to deserve this. I hate being angry and sad all the time. I can't do it. I just... I'm so tired. I sleep for a month and that was the best time. I miss them. My fucking little brother started school. School! The most important time in his life and i wasn't able to be there for him. I love him so much. Everytime i thing about that stupid kid i cry. Damn it. My dad. Damn i hate him. I hate him so much. How could me not fight for me. After all of the time i have stuck for him. All the shit my damn mother has said about him, ever time i just always said she was wrong. Never. Never have i ever been so hurt. No one has ever hurt me so much. My on Father, the only man who is suppose to protect me from the world is the one who rips my heart out and stomps on it. I hate him so much. I hear a noise and just ignore it. I don't even care anymore.
Noelle- "Madi! Oh my gosh are you ok?"
She rushes over me and holds me like a mom does to her kid after she scraps her knee.
Me-"How could he just leave me. Just leave me here alone with no one beside you to save my from hurting my self. Fuck. I hate him so much Noelle. I hate that still no matter how much he has put me through i still love him more then anyone in the world. I love my Fucking Father!"
I hate this, i love my father.
Well that was the hardest chapter yet, to write. I hope you guys like it.
The song is called The Letter by Kahlani, it's very beautiful to me. Something Madi would listen to.
Love you guys,
AmberScarlet1
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