Madison has always had friends but never really felt like she was close to anyone. She felt alone but practically knew everyone at her school. One day she goes to school and to her Aunt's house with painful surprises waiting for her. She has to fin...
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I Take the first step out of my Mothers Blue dodge dart and stare at the building that is my new school. I think back to last year. Damn that sucked. The tears, the sweat, the blood, i sound like a Gatorade commercial. I look down at my now tan white converse and curse my low income family. I turn around and shut the door and no more then ten seconds after do i hear the sound of someone almost literally burning tires to leave. I love you too mom. I tighten the straps on my new backpack and step forwards into what possible could be the best year so far. I open the door and turn right into Kayes plaza. I swear this place never changes. Oh, i forgot to mention i've been here like a thousand times being that my Uncle works here. Ugh i can't believe that i'm saying this, but i go to a private prep school. Worse part is It Not just a religious school but its the Jesuit high School. The freaking Holiest of holy, it the fucking society of Jesus for fuck sake, I haven't ent been forced to go to church for six years so i haven't gone. I open the door to Zavier Hall and find my new locker, great i have to share it with someone. I open the damn thing and i put my Bible on the top shelf. Yeah, we have to read the bible, Fun. I see my brother about five or so lockers down and he smiles a very annoying smile and i smile back like the fakest motherfucker ever. I slam my locker shut and then realize i need to calm down. I put my earbuds in a blast some Brendon Urie ( or Panic! At the Disco) and breath. New school, new me right? Yeah i got this. Im just going to be myself with a lot less attitude and sarcasm. I'm going to try and be the old Madi, the good girl, the nice girl. I smile a smile thats only a little fake. I pull my backpack back on my back and walk to the student center. I see a girl with long pretty hair thats really messy but still cool looking, sitting down in a semi- empty table. She looks up and her eyes widen and a huge grin appears on her face. I look down at my shirt to see if i have anthing on it. Nope, just the Fallout boy symbol and my music heart necklace. I look back at her and she stands up. The first sign of hope, We have the same Gosh Damn shirt. She walks over to me and i smile like a super geek.
Fallout Girl - "Oh my gosh. My name is Kelsi with in "I"! I love your shirt, well duh i have the same one!"
Me - "Im... Madison but everyone calls me Madi. "
Kelsi - " Well Madi. I think we should be friends because we both are super cool and like yeah thats it, we should just be friends."
We both laugh at here amazing reasoning, well i already love this girl. Do i see a best freindship in the future, i think i do. I wave good- bye to Kelsi with in "I" when the bell rings and walk to class. When i get to class there's a seating chart. Of course. I go to the back being thats where i sit. I love having Urrutia as my last name.First period is boring, English. I get through my classes until lunch with easy and suprisingly don't get homework yet. Well i have to sign some stuff but thats it . I walk around the lunch room scared to sit down becaus i don't anyone yet. I see my brother already sitting at the "popular kids table". Great. I end up just not getting lunch and walking around the school in bordom. When the bell rings I don't think I've ever been so relieved. I go to the Arts building and enter my now favorite class. Art. There's a sitting chart but who cares, it's art. I look around at the walls noticing some well made artwork and some not so well made artwork. Then the teacher, Ms. Shade calls my name and i look up.
Ms. Shade - "Madison Urr-uta."
Me - " Madi not Madison and its Urrutia."
I say my last name with as much as an accent as i can. I fell my face get warm for some reason and try to ignore it. I then feel eyes on my. I turn around and see this dude just full on creeper staring at me so like always i stare back, intensely. Guessing that he wasn't expecting it his face gets a little red and he turns away. I "Napoleon Dynamite yes" louder then i realize and everyone stares at me. Turns out it sounded like a was excited or happy for some random guy to be in this class. So i decide to fix it.
Me -" Err no. I didn't yes to him. I was not paying attention to that. I was Distracted by creepy stare back there. "
Everyone looks back at starey magee and he glares at me.
Ms. Shade - " Mr. Kellar Mcharthy, why are you bothing Madi?"
Kellar - "She has a brother Miss and i just couldn't see the resemblance everyone is talking about."
Ms. Shade - "You have a brother Madi?"
Oh great, already everyone is going to know. Wait. He said resemblance EVERYONE is talking about. Oh shit.
Me - " Yeah actually i have three bothers.."
Ms. Shade - " What are their names and ages."
Me - " Well there's Kaiden he's 4 now, Anthony he's fifteen, we're twins and then Mario he's, i think 20 now. "
Some random Kid in the class - " Wait your brother is the Mario Urrutia isn't he like some big time baseball player or something. I read in this magazine he crashed a super nice brand new convertible into a movie set and people loved it and hired him to be in the movie."
Me - " Yeah, that's Mario. Im guessing the magazine didn't say he broke his leg and wrist during the accident so he could no longer play Baseball, right?"
Ms. Shade - " Ok class i want you to focus back up here. Today i want you to draw a collage about who you are. It is due not next class but the class after that. "
I feel my heart start to race. Who i am? What does that mean? I see everyone start to work so i get up and i go to the front to ask Ms. Shade.
Me - " Hi, Ms. Shade. I don't understand the assignment. What am suppose to draw?"
Ms. Shade - "Well Madi, what makes you you? Draw what makes you who you are."
Me - " Um ok?"
I walk to my desk and stare at the blank peice of paper in front ofmy for what seems like five minutes but is really the rest of the class period. When I'm finally broke for the staring contest im having with the poor piece of paper i see it's Ms. Shade who broke me away from the paper.
Ms. Shade - " Madi are you ok? You have done nothing this entire class period."
Me - " I'm sorry. I promise i do all of my work all of the time. I... I... I don't know who i am. I don't know what I don't know and I don't know me."
Ms. Shade - " What do you like to do? Who is your favorite person? Favorite music artist? Those things make you you, not just the big things like tragedies and miracles, but the little things that you love. You are what you love, not who loves you." ___________________________
Yo what up? Sorry about my absence I would like to say that i was busy and/or i was unable to write but, I can't. Truth is i have not been felling like my self for a while now and I didn't what to do anything but lay in bed all day and listen to sad songs. Anyways, Hi. I picked this song because it's one of the sad songs I listened to and two because it has to do a like with the title.
