Changed for life

Being Selfish

Sometimes when you're really quit you can hear the sound of sadness. It's quit and very sneaky, It comes out of no where.

And that's what happened to me.

When we got home i when to my room and sat on my bed to reflect on the day, to smile and remember Brandon, to think about tomorrow.

I felt a vibration from my back pocket.

I pulled out my phone and see i have a text from an unknown number and Kelsi.

Kelsi: Yo. I think i left my sketch book in your backpack and i need you to not look inside okay, okay. love you boo. 

i text back with a simple k and open the other text.

UN: Hey this is David Cosper from history, your dude friend. So i'm sorry if things didn't work out with that guy if it was because of me. Also, I got your number from Anthony. He got kind of weird when i asked him so watch out for that.

I add him as a contact and reply.

Me: Hey "dude friend" everything's okay. I explained and he understood, kinda. How did it go with your girl?

David: My girl? 

Me: Yeah your girl. The one who asked you out?

David: Oh her. Yeah she kind like screeched and then hugged me. I don't know if i can do this. I am not that kind of person.

Me: What you mean?

David: I don't really like public displays of affection unless I really like that person. 

Me: oh. I get it, i get uncomfortable sometimes too.

David: I don't know. I just wish the person i want it be with wanted me, you know?

Me: Wait, What? You like someone?

David: Yeah. But, i can't tell her anymore because she's with someone she likes.

Me: I'm sorry. 

David: You have nothing to be sorry for.

 I didn't know what to say. I had nothing to say to comfort him. I felt angry for him because that girl was really missing out.

But, that was the jealousy i felt for that girl i wished i was her and i knew i shouldn't have. I had someone, he wanted me too. I felt like i was taking that for granted. I hated myself for feeling like that, so i didn't reply and instead texted Brandon.

Me: Hey, so i was thinking we should do something...

Not expecting a reply so soon i felt me surprise when i say the ellipses from him.

Brandon: Something?

Me: Yeah Something. Like together?

Brandon: As in a date?

I felt the heat in my cheeks.

Me: I mean if you want to call it that.

I bit my lip in anticipation for in answer. 

Brandon: I really want to call it that.

I fell back on my bed and smiled with excitement.

Brandon: Do you want to go on a date with me Madi?

Me: Yes i really do.  

Brandon: Good. Be ready tomorrow, i got some ideas.

I lay there on my bed smiling for hours until my mom called me out for dinner.

I sat down at the table with what i hope was a neutral face.

"Hey mom is okay if i stay after school?"

"Why?" she answered.

I think for a second , " I have a project with a partner and they can't  work with me any other time so i said i would ask you first. So can i?"

" I guess so but, you have to walk home because I have a work event tomorrow."

I sit there nodding and hiding the excitement in. 

She asks if i need money for dinner and i said probably just in case.

After dinner i go to my room and text Brandon.

Me: Can you take me home tomorrow? Like can you drive?

Brandon: I can drive and my six months just past last week, so yes i can take you home.

Me: Good then we're good to go for tomorrow.

Brandon: Awesome. I think i might be having  a heart attack by the way.

Me: Wait what? Why?

Brandon: My heart beats so fast when i talk to you.

Me: Oh my gosh. You are so cheesy.

Brandon: It's true, i really like Madi.

My whole body shivered.

Me: I really like you too.

Brandon: Good.

Me: Good.

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So i know i kind of died, sorry. I'm just not a good writer so yeah. I really love the song above so i just decided to add it.

love,

AmberScarlet1