Going Back to Get Away After Everything Has Changed

Ch 6: Can't Say I'm Sad To See You Go

Taylor York's POV

I think I said what out loud because Jenna repeated her statement again, except more quietly and awkwardly. I shook my head in disbelief, and glanced at the Farros reflecting the same expression as I had.

"I'm sorry about Josh. Is he okay?" I blurted out. It sounded like a cheap way to change the subject, but that wasn't my intention.

Jenna sighed and shook her head. "No, he's in a pretty critical condition. I don't know if he is going to make it to be honest. All the jargon the doctors threw at me was overwhelming. I couldn't really process it all."

I just nodded my head sympathetically. What am I supposed to say? That sucks?

"I think your husband is going to be okay." I said to Jenna as I motioned to all the Farro family supporting Josh. "He has a lot of people praying for him."

I thought I said the right thing but apparently not since tears started to stream down her eyes. My first instinct was to console her in the way I would hug Hayley in her stressful times. But I felt that would be awkward. Even weird to compare the two together since that could have been Hayley I would be trying to console.

Instead, I stood there uncomfortably, looking away.

"I'm sorry." Jenna said as she wiped her tears.

"Don't be sorry for that. I would be devastated if that was Jess in there." I responded.

I thought I was saying the right things but it was only hitting her harder.

"Yeah, how long are you staying?" Jenna asked, wiping away the last of her fresh tears.

"I don't know."

"Well, just uhh, a while before you leave can we talk?"

I just stared at her eyes, clueless. Eventually I just shrugged and nodded my head.

I felt as some sort of huge relief lifted off of my shoulders as she walked away to the rest of the Farros and I sat back down alone. Zac kept giving me curious looks, as did the rest of the family. Jenna did not look once at me.

In all my years of the oppurtunity to be in an awkward situation, never would I have thought the most embarrasing and awkward expeirence would be here. I wanted to leave but I couldn't. I wanted to step outside for some fresh air but then it would have been mistaken as me leaving. So I just sat there, trying not to look at any of the Farros. But after a while I had an urge to check my social media, but that would have seemed rude.

Without thinking, I called Jess.

"Hey. Is everything okay?" Jess said as she picked up. I can tell that she must have been concerned that I was calling.

"Yeah, yeah." I said to assure her that the situation wasn't bad.

Wait, no it was bad.

"Oh no, no." I said right after. "Josh is in critical condition from what I heard. Jenna was with him alone the whole time."

After a brief moment, she responded. "What's wrong? You're getting jumpy, and you only do that when you are in a tough spot."

Gotta love my wife, she knows me so well.

I stood up to move a good hearing distance away.

"I love you." I said without thinking.

"Oh God, Taylor what happened?"

Sometimes my spontaneous nature has the worst timing.

"No no no, I was saying that because you know me so well!"