Her Heart, His tears,Their Love (Under construction)

I got you.

[Warning: Mature content.]

Lucid dreaming - Where one is a aware of dreaming while still asleep.

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Daniel's Pov

I knew this place, I knew this cabin, my dad used to take us here all the time when I was kid.

The fresh woodsy smell of pine trees hung heavily in the air as I followed the gardened path that wrapped around to the back of the house, and just like an old memory, I knew who would be waiting there for me. And even though I knew this was a dream, even though I was very aware of the outcome, I still followed the path.

I gulped picking at the length in my levi jeans as I made out the figure of my mom sitting on the back deck, leaning back in her rocking chair as the golden sun kissed her tanned skin and a light breeze blew through her thick black hair. If this was my first time having this dream, I would have thought it normal, just looking on I maybe would have even thought she was happy. She wasn't, she was numb, she was frozen in time, she was how my mind made her out to be, how my dreams chose to remember her..before..before we lost it all, before we lost our glue,before we lost my dad.

She smiled as I approached

" Mijo what are you doing out here?"

I ignored her question, watching her eyebrows furrow in confusion. I knew how this went, how it always goes.

"Mom where's dad? " I asked getting straight to the point trying to withhold my anticipation of seeing my dad alive, sick yeah, but alive.

"Oh honey I tried to wake you, I just bought him to the hospital for his scheduled surgery. You know nothing serious so he didn't want me to stay, him and Dr.Ken practically forced me out of the hospital."

She laughed lightly but I could see the concern and worry in her eyes "I stood my ground though, I wanted to be there until he came out, but you know your dad." she sighed and I laughed knowing exactly what she meant.

Dad was hard headed, and stubborn, once he made up his mind there was no if ands or buts about it. Especially since he'd gotten sick, the cancers taken a toll on his body and neither me or mom had it in us to argue with him anymore.

I looked up through my eyelashes, watching my mom as she looked out into the forest.

"Ma is something wrong?"

I asked already knowing the answer, already knowing the outcome. No matter how many times I had this dream I couldn't change it. That's the thing with lucid dreaming, you know its a dream, but you can't control everything.

I watched as my mom took in a breath as she turned to me "I dont know." she said quietly biting her lip, it reminded me of something Shyla would do, and that almost bought a smile to my face, until I realised where I was and what came after this.

How could I think about Shyla right now ?

I shook my head.

she must really be getting to me, if she's in my dream, this dream.

"I just feel like Somethings' wrong, something doesn't feel right."

I heard my mothers voice speak up again as I came out of my thoughts meeting her brown eyes.

I started to speak knowing she would cut me off

"But Ma--"

She laughed stopping my sentence as she rubbed a hand over her tired face, that's probably one reason dad made her leave without staying with him, she had already spent the night all week for his testing, the day they actually let him go home, we got the call that they found something on one of the x-rays, the doctor said it was nothing serious but they wanted to remove it just incase it had an effect on the cancer. One day in, one day out.